I'm sorry to anyone I've hurt

I'm sorry for making friends with you

I'm sorry I can't take that pain away

I'm sorry I couldn't be a better person

I'm sorry for anything I've done

I'm sorry for talking

I'm sorry for even being here

I'm sorry for even saying hi

-"Just because it's taken you three years to notice, Ron, doesn't mean no one else has spotted I'm a girl!"

-"The fates have informed me that your examination in June will concern the Orb, and I am anxious to give you sufficient practice. Hermione snorted. "Well honestly. . . 'the fates have informed her'. . . Who sets the exam? She does!"

-"Twitchy little ferret, aren't you, Malfoy?"

-"Malfoy's got detention! I could sing."

-"I hope you're pleased with yourselves. We could all have been killed-or worse, expelled. Now if you don't mind, I'm going to bed."

-"Ron," said Hermione in a dignified voice, "you are the most insensitive wart I have ever had the misfortune to meet."

I found this pic and it's awsome:

I'm horrable! I'm a horrable person. People hate me and they don't want to see my face. They don't want to see my horrablw green-hazle eyes ever again........I'm depressed, I have like, no money and I need it. BAD! I have to pay for school, which I don't have enough for. I need to find my car insurance that I lost and I need to talk to Mike, if he will take a few MINUTES from his so-called "BUSY LIFE" and I want to crawl in a hole and DIE!!! I don't know what to do right now, I feel like I've lost everything!!!!!!!!! Everything I've ever managed to make. It feels like it's all gone!!! I'm gonna go cry some more.

                                                           gloria

To mike:

I wish we could talk about this more, because, well, you should have told me when I asked you what was wrong, but i guess you don't give a shit about me or anyone else for that matter. I wish you could've told me about how you had bee, instead of ignoring me....you could've just come out and said it!!!! WTF is wrong with you? I guess i'm not good enough.........................i wish you a happy life.

                          Gloria Mire

I'd like to tell everyone that DOESN'T know, that mike and I are no more. He's found it that he doesn't want to get married and he said that he's "not ready to get married"...well Mike, I'm sorry you feel that way, but it's not like we where going to in like a YEAR! you know i cared for you and that i wanted to do this.......but now it's your loss. Your the dumb one that didn't want this. I tried to talk this thru, but you shut me out.........i guess you don't give a shit about anyone but yourself. I'm sorry everyone had to find out this way............mike, don't come crying back to me in a year and a half asking me back...IT WON'T WORK!!!!!!! Trust me, this was the VERY last chance you had and you blew it. I wish you the best and I guess the names meant nothing. Oh, Justin and Kaitlyn, we HAD planned to give the kids your middle names and you would have been the god parents, but that's all just shot to dshit now. I hope you have a nice life, asshole!

Well, that felt nice to get off my chest. I am taking applications for dates if anyone is interested. But not for a while, I'm still moping around....BYEZ!!!

                                Love you all,

                                              Gloria

I've decided to move back home with mummy and daddy....lolz, yeah, sorry, i had to put that in. lolz, newayz, i've already got plans for tomorrow night and sometime next week, i might have a date! Thanks to katie! newayz, if everyone was wondering how i'm feeling, i'm feeling good. everyday that goes by is another day well spent. I've got plans up until like, idk, i think, the rest of my life it seems! I've already got guyz asking me on dates! lolz, i think i'm gonna like being single. I already told some of the guyz that it'll be a little while before i can really trust someone again., and they all understood! It'a amazing what can happen if your just honest with a guy from the start!!! lolz, but, yeah! I'm doing alright! I hope everyone's doing great and such! I've gotta finish packing! See you and I send lots of love!

                                                           Gloria

I've got everything in my room in order(finally)! It took me a few hours, but it works. I've got a chair in the corner by my sterio and I've got my PS2 working again. I'm gonna go see a movie. I don't know what though.....hmm....what to see? what to see? all well, i'll just read something then.

anyways, I hope everyone is doing all right! Love you, Gloria

I know everyone wants to know how i am. I'm doing great! I know everyone thinks that I'm not, but I am! I've taken time for myself to think everything through and I've made the decision to go on a road trip with some ppl come March or April. We're going to Florida for another one of our friends' spring break. He's coming back up here come next fall to go to the UofM...interesting how he misses everyone! lolz, yeah, UPS is great! I have one guy that made me feel good. He complimented on how cute and sweet and werid I am! I think it's a compliment?! *ponders* all well, he was being sweet and trying to cheer me up and it worked. That night I also went to buffalo wild wings with some ppl, we played trivia and I didn't get home til late...I MEAN LATE! the next night was almost as insane! I went to a party after my parents picked up my dresser and we played Texas Hold'em. I won half the pot! It would've taken too long to determain the winner, so it was a tie. I took someone home and went back over to where the party was and we had a blast! We played a lame game of truth or dare, but after about 2:00 am, we just bull shited the rest of the night! I had to stay and share a bed with two ppl, b/c i was too danm gone to drive home. It was great! I havn't had that much fun in the longest time!!! lolz, i thin it's been a yr since I've had fun with those ppl! We're getting together again this weekend at my house to celebrate another yr of friendship and another yr to come of stupid relationships, stupid moment and stupid shit in general! But, no drinking. I have to drive all the ppl hime, so I can't drink. *I'm refering to Mike in ANY WAY!* anywayz! I'm getting my eyes checked to see if I need a diiferent pair of glasses, so, that should be fun. But that's at like, 3:30............oooo fun! lolz, so, yeah!!! I'm hoping everyone's having fun! I guess ppl are right about life! Live every moment like it's your last! I don't know where I heard that, but I heard someone say it once.

My cousin's gettin married and I talked to her brother, he MIGHT have a friend dance with me for a few songs!!! I'm so excited and I havn't seen a pic, but I said that it didn't rly matter, as long as he's nice and he doesn't try to be all, "I'm this and that!" I hate guyz that try to impress me with shit like their all better then the rest of the world. Girls are supposed to be like that, not GUYZ!!!!!!! lolz, yeah, I'm just jabbering. God, I havn't written this much in, FOREVER! Life is good, life is good! newayz! If I can, I'll update more later! I'll see everyone soon! Byez!

                                       Love yas, Gloria

Sorry, I'm a little bored and I wanted to ask you ppl something. Am I pretty? I know it's a dumb question to ask, but I've been wondering it for a few hours now. Am I pretty? I've been trying to think of ways that ppl love me and WHY they love me and i know they love me for who I've become, but do ppl love me for my looks? I know, you prolly think I'm trying to get attention, I'm not. It's just a question and I was told by a teacher that there is no such thing as a dumb question...well, I think this almost hits the spot. *takes big breath* I'm bored and I hate being bored!!! I know everyone thinks I should be in class, but I dropped out b/c I don't make enough $$$ to go. It's like $2,000 and I don't have that kind of cash. Sure, I can make that in only a few months, but most of my money is already going to my parents to pay they back for my car and I have car insurance and I don't know if I should get a cell phone. I love having one so ppl can reach me when I'm not home, but I'm NEVER home! I get home round 12:00, sleep til 9:30, then I come to the city to take care of stuff I need to do, then it's off to work. Borring life. That's what I lead. A BORRING LIFE!!! I'm trying to find where pple hang out on weekends in Montrose (Next to Buffalo down 55), but nothin...I'll try to ask some ppl...if I see ppl. But, YEAH!!! If anyone would like to get together, I'm free Sunday!!! Please! Save me from rents!!!! I don't want to be stuck inside when it rains!!! *whimpers in the corner* but, I guess, if my parents would get internet at home, I wouldn't have to use my gas to drive to the library for 20 mintes! Yes, I live 20 minutes from Buffalo, b/c Montrose doesn't have a library. I already asked....it's sad if you ask me. newayz! I guess I'll go walk around....try to find SOMETHING to do!

                                                           Love you all, Gloria

I don't know what to do w/my life! I'm bord and I have nothin' to do! I don't really have ne$$$ other wise, I'd be getting some new clothes. Just what I need, more clothes. I'm gonna go thru my old clothes and give them to good will...i feel so much better when I know my old clothes are going to the less fortanet....nehow, like I said, I'm bored. OH! My nieces turned 5 and 1 yesterday! It was so cute! The 1 yr old, DeLanie, took a handful of icing in her hand and got it all over her face! Oh, I wish I had a pic! Then poor Lillie, the 5 yr old, didn't get and cake! It was so sad! I said that I'd go buy her her own littel cake, but my rents wouldn't let me. We where at a park and I felt out of place. But that was yesterday. Saturday was even better. I got to have a few friends see my house, which they liked and we went to my lake and chilled I think for 2 hours. Then we went and bothered my granpa for like, a half hour. Which was funny b/c he was trying to buy my can from me for $2.00. It was a sweet gesture, coming from a granpa. He's really old and he and 3 of his was buddies invented the first ever air pressured nail gun!!! Isn't that awsome! I've known that for a few weeks now and I still can't believe my granpa did that! I read all about it in a newspaper from Winsted, Minnesota. If you don't believe me, look it up! His name is Marvin Hirsch. and be sure to spell the last name RIGHT H-I-R-S-C-H! But yeah, sorry! I've g2g!

                                               Lots a love,

                                                 Gloria

Hello! I know I havn't updated in a few days, but my car is getting crappy and I have a defective starter. I guess the one they had in the shop was a bad one. But I've talked to alot of ppl and they say it happens. DON't EVEN SAY IT MIKE! We don't even have to pay for it to be replaced b/c the one in my car is under a warentee, so yeah! Wed. was interesting! I went to work thinking everything will be fine, right? WRONG! We had that huge storm which the power went out at UPS and we had to get on top of all the belts like, 200 feet off the ground, 5 feet from the cieling, and get frickin, packages off the top belts! It wasn't as easy as everyone thinks. I thought that if I even sliped and fell over the edge, i'd be dead, but then a supervisor walked along the SIDE of the belts and there was a floor! Thank god I couls get dowm that way! We didn't have to go back the way we got up there, which is a good thing! There was about 20 of us up there and the guy in charge of the building told us to come down. I almost fell 2 times walking down a ladder thingy and it was steep!!!! I mean STEEP! Not fun. My hands were sweaty and I was dripiing with sweat, like I had been drenched with water...interesting if you ask me. But everything was up and running when i got there last night. YAY! I got to do my normal job!!!!!!!!! YAY! I was happily on the ground.

That was at 10. I didn't get out of there until, I think 12...I wanted to go home so bad!!! :( But I get extra $ on my next check, WHICH IS GOOD! lolz, but yeah! That was Wed.

Wed night I slept at Katie's house cuz it was so late. Well thurs. I went to get fabric w/Katie b/c she's making a rug. Well, I saw how easy it is and it took her only like 2 days to do one in an oval, and I'm doing one! It's gonna be a sun!!! It's gonna have bright yellow, golden yellow, light blue, middle blue, and blue w/yellow stars. IT's gonna be awsome! It signify's day to night. My walls are a nice yellow, and the carpet is a midnight blue. So, a sun is just perfect!!! Kaitlyn, what colors are your dorm walls and floor!!! I'm making you one. It won't be huge, but you can put it at your door way. Tell me 2 colors you and your room mate want and I'll make you one!!! Just let me know!!!

But, I G2G! I hope everyone is doing great! Love you all, Gloria

What to say, what to say? I don't know anymore... :( I don't have anything to write about...oh, my cousin is getting married on sat...and a friend is going with...and I'm gonna be w/out a date......depression sux!!! I know thats what my problem is and I want it to go away! sorry, i have nothing else to write about, so I guess I should say that I'm depressed! Great! My life is soo borring!!!

I have nothing to say,

I have no one for myself,

I can't call anyone mine,

And no one call me their's.

Sorry, I'm really bored...I have nothing to say! The nbext time I can come up w/something I'll let you know! Bye for now. Gloria

I'm bored out of my mind w/nothin to do!!! I'm thinking of just sitting around and doing nothing for the rest of my life! oh right. I have no LIFE!!! Please! Someone save me from the horror of having no life and only a few friends to see! I need to be saved from no other then the no life queen!!!

Sorry, I'm bored and that was compleately random. Don't you jsut love randomness?! I don't know if that's such a good thing, but I'm just feeling like there's nothing I can do. But I've gotta go...........I need to fill out applications.......find somewhere closer to home, ya know, the usual.

Love ya, Gloria

You know what? I've been reading ppl's blogs and I've seen that we all have something in common. We all have hard ships. We all want the best things out of life. We all want to get away from our parents. Even our friends when we don't know where else to go. Like, this one chick wrote about how she wants to just pack a few things and leave for a while. I hear her out and feel the same way. She's not 20 yet and I just turned 20...what am I doing working at a factory putting hinges on cabinet doors when I should be seeing the world?! I should just pack a few things, like a ew outfits, and get as much money as I can, and just, leave. Make a life for myself somewhere else. My dreams have been shattered and I don't want them to be shattered. I want them fulfilled and I know SOO many ppl that are going through the same thing as me. I mean, when I get enough money saved up, I'l gonna ask 1 or 2 other ppl to go w/me on my trip to find our selves. Who you are, I don't know. We'll see what the next year will bring us. Untill then, I'm gonna start thinking of all the different places I could go. Like, france, germany, england, london, russia, arizona, florida, cali, new york, iowa, lets just saw, the us in general. Ok, so lots of places....now, where to go when I decide to go? I'm thinking england or london. Somewhere ppl can speak english, so I don't have trouble trying to ask ppl where something is. Hey, I should go to europ jsut for it!!! lolz, now I feel dumb! so yeah! I'm going to someplace over sea's, I'm going to see everything that my parents couldn't see, and I'm going to take 1 or 2 others w/me......great huh? yeah. It'll be the best trip EVER! g2g!

Love, Gloria

Ok, so I thought that my job would be a LITTLE hard. WRONG! my job is fuckin MINDLESS!!! omg! I can't believe the ppl. I was sitting w/some girls that work in my area, which it's all women mind you and I thought it'd be a little fun. But neways. This chick started to talk about her daughter having a friend over and she was joking right? well, the mom asked her daughter where her k&y jelly stuff was and the girl is prolly 14. She said, "Mom! Shut up go away! I havn't seen it!" I'm like ok, is there a point? neways, basically, the mom embaressed her daughter infront of her friend. It was great! I wish I could do that to my sis, I'd rule if I could! well, yeah that was lunch. I have to work 6am-4:30pm...........ARG! I don't want to work that long, but it's mon-fri and sat's are 6am-noon........fun huh? not really. My back started to twitch on me around 2 and it's a lil better now that I'm sitting. yeah, I'm glad I don't have to drive an hour to work. It's better but not as much. But I still get paid every fri...Hee hee hee! I win! And I found out there's a tuition reimbersment thru dura supreme. I can even get 78% off a WHOLE kitchen if I wanted to remodel my kitchen! My parents even get it! But no friends. Sorry peeps. But I g2g looking for something...bye!

Lots a love, Gloria

So, I think I need a life! I've been bored, but I got paid! Like 450.00!!!! Hell yes! and that's only me 2nd check! But, my job isn't that easy. I'm hoping I get enough $$$ saved up for my AZ and Cali trip! I'm also happy that The OC is back on. I'm a lil confused, so I'm gonna check the oc site to see what I've missed. So, I gotta go!!!!!! I'll try to update, but what about? I don't know!

                      Love ya, Gloria

Look what I found! It's kinda sweet and cute, but I think it's funny!

Fan made video: Harry and Hermione


- Download

Hey! My peeps! Sorry it's been a while...just busy w/dura. I now work 10 and 1/2 hours a day, except this coming sat, I'm working 8 and 1/2 hours. I'm taking my niece and nephew to see Harry Potter sat and I asked a guy friend to go w/so I'm not stuck w/2 10 year olds alone. I even told them it would depend on how they acted this past weekend. They both usually fight like crazy, but my dad and I ask for them to please get along! And it worked! Using a movie as a goal works for 10 yr olds! Why didn't anyone tell me this sooner! Maybe that's all we had to do all this time while we screamed and yelled at them. If anyonew is wondering, they're born 4 months and a week apart. They act like bro and sis sometimes....it's soo creepy. But I love 'em anyway. Well, that's all for now. OH! Can anyone tell me if taking a guy along to this movie is a date ir not? I'm thinking it could be....but I don't know. I guess it could and couldn't be at the same time....HELP ME! HELP ME! lolz...gotta go!

                              Love ya, Gloria

Hey ppl1 I know it hasn't been that long since I've updated, but I've been bored and I don't know what to do about it! I'm going into the city b/c I'm gonna get a hoodie from a store and I want to visit with some ppl, but I need to knwo who's all gonna be around. Help, please? I'm bored as hell and my rents don't care if i go into the city I guess. So, I'm gonna be in to visit w/you ppl. I'm hoping you'll be around. So, yeah!

Would you think a fight should be the beginning of a book? I'm gonna write a book, b/c I need something to keep my mind off things and writting always helps. So, what are some idea's? One thing I was thinking is that there should be 4 ppl. 2 guys and 2 girls. They all should write there own side of a story about something, but I don't know. HELP!!!! lolz, sorry,like I said, I'm bored. Well, i gotta go! BYE!!  Gloria

Hey, everyone. I knoi it's late, but I'm bored and I'm trying to update everything. I finally have time to do shit on here. Well, here's a song hat I've been listening to that I think everyone should thing o the meaning.

"If Everyone Cared" By Nickleback

From underneath the trees, we watch the sky

Confusing stars with satellites

I never dreamed that you'd be mine

But here we are, we're here tonight

Singing amen, I'm alive

Singing amen, I'm alive

If everyone cared and nobody cried

If everyone loved and nobody lied

If everyone shared and swallowed their pride

We'd see the day nobody died

And I'm singing

Amen, I'm alive

Amen, I'm alive

And in the air the fireflies

Our only light in paradise

We'll show the world they were wrong

And teach them all to sing along

Singing amen, I'm alive

Singing amen, I'm alive

If everyone cared and nobody cried

If everyone loved and nobody lied

If everyone shared and swallowed their pride

We'd see the day nobody died

If everyone cared and nobody cried

If everyone loved and nobody lied

If everyone shared and swallowed their pride

We'd see the day nobody died

And as we lie beneath the stars

We realize how small we are

If they could love like you and me

Imagine what the world could be

If everyone cared and nobody cried

If everyone loved and nobody lied

If everyone shared and swallowed their pride

We'd see the day nobody died

We'd see the day, we'd see the day

When nobody died

We'd see the day, we'd see the day

When nobody died

We'd see the day, we'd see the day

Sorry about the song, it's just a really good one and I listen to it like, a million times a day, b/c I like it and I do think that everyone can help stop the war in Iraq and help get the soilders back here, where the lives of Americans should be our FIRST priority. Not by what Bush thinks. As you can tell, I don't like him.

America needs our soilders home, not trying to fight a war that's been going on for thousands of years. (i don't know if it's been that lond, but it's just a guess, bear with me, please) Well, that's all I can think of as MY political views go. If you want to help, then bookmark this entry please.

Have you ever read a story and at the end, have a character have to die AFTER he sets the other free? I just read a fanfic and I cried. It shows that two ppl that are forced apart, can still overcome love, no matter if it's for the right reason or for if it's easy. I knwow I sound crazy, but I've been thinking that I might never EVER find a boyfriend. One guy I like and have known half my life, is hung up on a girl that's got a boyfriend. She tells him to leave her alone, but he won't. I also like a guy that not very many ppl like, even my dad. I wish I could find a guy that likes me back, but I don't know. I've been working so much, that, the guy is prolly right under my nose adn I can't see it through the fog that's covering my world with a despret need for some color. I need someone to bring me out of this depression, b/c it's killing me that I cry over some stupid fanfic story that shows two ppl that hate each other half their lives, care about each other after only a short period of time. I feel horrible! I want to crawl into a hole and cry myself to eath! That's how sad and derpressed MIKE has made me. I can't believe I forgave you! How could you put me through this! How can I guy I loved and cared for, get to me soo badly? I don't know, but I want that same KIND of relationship. One built more on understanding then what you think you should have. Like, if you should base your life on what yuor lead to believe, or if you should do what you think is right. I son't know what I'm trying to say, but I want to be HAPPY! I hate this depression! I hate it soo much! I want to love and be loved again. Someone I know understands that I need carring ppl in my life. Not just someone to call "my boyfriend", but someone that cares alot about me and knows they can wait untill I'm ready for something.

Sorry, I'm jsut reflecting on the story. It proves that love is one of the strongest values most people have and that they want it, even when they are forced into shit they don't want to do. I feel sorry for all of you ppl that are forced into shit and that you can't love someone you are forced to hate. I guess that's part of life. Trying to figure where you stand in the world. Trying to find if you will shine in the stars above, or if you'll be nothing but a blimp of igsisance in the world. Is this really what life is supposed to be like? I'm not sure, but I want to know what I'm really supposed to give to this world. I know I can make others happy, but helping them, b/4 I help myself, and I know ppl care like my parents, but I'm worried that I'm putting others before myself too much. I want to live my life as best as anyone else in this world, but how can I do that? By hiding behind my job and do nothing more then hindge doors and put them in order for the ppl that actually put the cabinets together? Is that my purpose? If you want to pity me, then go ahead. I don't care. I guess I shouldn't give a shit anymore, b/c life is hard and I can't get the color back into my world. It's going to be drained of color until the day I die.

Yes, life should be lived to it's upmost and we should live life to the best and have everything. But what is everything? Is it a title? Or is it love? Would you chose love over money? Or would you chose poverty to love another human being? WHat's the right path we take? Love or a title?

I try to see the light in this dark hole. It's sending me lower and lower everyday.

I can't have you because you want her, And she wants someone else.

I want to be with you. Be your shinning star at night.

Be your warmth. But now I'm cold. Cold as the Minnesota breeze off the frozen lakes.

Why can't you see you can have someone after her?

She's not the only fish in this frozen over lake we call a world.

I guess love isn't as free as we all hoped it always would be.

I see your fake smile in this darkness. But should I say your a sweetheart when I ask for your help from the cold?

I don't think so. I'm gonna hate you because i care and I'm gonna care because we've known one another for so long.

You don't want to see it, but it's there. The love and carring I'll share is there. Why can't you see it? But, of course! Your blinded by her talking, but not loving shinning so bright in your face, you can't see another, waiting for you to get over her.

She's gotten over you, but when will you turn around and see me standing right behind you like I always have?

You're a great friend and I'm sure you'll be an even greater boyfriend, husband, even a wonderous father to a special child soon to come into this world.

But this world could turn into hell, if no one cares about another around the corner of their home, school, life!

I wish you could see thru her fakeness and see the real me. The me one man once saw. But he's not a man, but a boy that broke my heart.

The same heart I want you to fill with as much love as you can give just one person. I wish you could see thru that blindness, the true love you share with no one. No one is what I am to you. Now and forever.

Your cold heart makes the winter colder and if the warmth of a smile should help warm my own heart, then smile at me for once. Once you've smiled, is life any better then it was 5 seconds ago? No, it will never be better.

Not by a second or 500 years. I watch and read about those falling in love witht their enemy. Can you truely love your worst enemy? The one you've been told to hate? The one you've grown to hate more then fungi itself? I guess so, acording to a fan of Harry Potter and about 5 billion others in this world.

You think you have to hate others of another color, but we're all the same, fake smile in this galaxy of fakes.

Is this really how our world should be? The United States is involved in shit, we shouldn't be. We but our noses into others business and don't see the truth behind the eyes of our lovers and friends. Show me your true self. The one you don't let anyone see. Only yourself can save me and take me far from this hole of darkness. Where are you when I wanted love? I guess chasing a dream that will never be there. The same dream I want isn't thier since he left and no longer loves me for who I am. Will anyone every love another for their true self? Only for the fake smile?

I'm screaming inside my head. Screaming at you to wake up from this nightmare called life.

ok, I know you think I'm a wirdo for harry potter,a dn yes I'm a fan. You may think I'm obsessed, but I was reading some fanfics and I found one about them having the internet and AIM. I hope you enjoy it as much as I did. http://fanfiction.mugglenet.com/viewstory.php?sid=36310

Have fun!

hey! Sorry it's been a while for an update. I guess I shoule tell everyone then! No exciting news, but I do get next fri off from work. i have a "Personal Holiday" I get to use, so that's when i'm taking it. I would've taken it the next fri, but my manager said that I couldn't, so it's this coming fri. My lead was poed about it, b/c someone from my area is already going to be gone, so she tried to get me to work, but She talked to my manager, so I have it off! YAY! I might call in the following sat if I have to work. Their gonna try to do the whole 1/2 work one weekend, other 1/2 work following weekend. I don't know if it'll work, I'm hoping it does. Then I get my sat mornings back!!!! YAY! I can finally have a REAL weekend! Something I havn't had in like, 2 months. Yes, it's been 2 monthes at Dura, almost....yeah, it's getting better witht the hours, but it sucks. I work 7am - 3:30 pm. I liked workinig 6-4:30...but my area is 1 1/2 days ahead, so their having us work less hours. I don't like it b/c I miss out on $100! I want the 10 1/2 hour days back!!!! It may have been very long, but hey! I lost a few hours overtime! That's what made up for the extra $100. I guess they want to save money. If they did, they wouldn't hire soo many ppl. But it's ok, they just keep hiring. If you need a full-time job and your over 18, work for Dura. They'll prolly hire you. They were stupid enough to hire me! j/k. I'm not that bad. I worked at Arby's for 4 years and I didn't get fired. I guess that's good, right?

In other newa, I'm taking my nephew to see Chronicle of Narnia (did I spell that right?) I'm soo pumped! the movies at 7 pm and I only have a few hours to go! Well, I don't really have anything else to say, not much to really talk about, I guess.............I get the mon after x-mas off from work and x-mas eve. Even the fri and sat after that, maybe they said. I guess it's my own little vacation if I get it off. I hope so, b/c I need sometime off from there. It's like I live their now. They just have to build a sepret building right next to it and they can have ppl rent out little apartments for $200 a month. Only something big enough for me...I'm not picky!  hahaha1 That's funny! lolz, ok, I gotta go. i'm writing something and I need to get back to it. Byez!

OMG!!! I soo want the guy that play Peter! He's soo hott! lolz, I'm soo...I don't know how to describe it! I'm jumping around, more like dancing! I soo want a guy that cute and sweet! (looks off in the distance and sees guy that plays Peter smiling back at her) lolz, I soo, just, want to devour him! He makes me melt! Worse then frickin, Tom Felton AND Adam Brody put together!  lolz, I love the smilies! Their great! I soo...I don't know what I want! He's just soo....(dreamy sigh) lolz, I'm going crazy for a guy that's prolly not even close to my age. I'm guessing he's like, what? 16? I'm 20 and theirs no frickin' chance. Plua, he's 1/2 a world away. I'll be all better tomorrow after I go shopping. I'm getting my moms and sister's presents tomorrow. I need to get angel something...I already got her a b-day present and I just need to get her something for x-mas...but what? Any ideas? lolz, I'm not gonna be sleeping, I know that for sure. well, I'm gonna try to get some sleep.

                                        Love ya's, Gloria

Hey! I found a fanfic that's jsut funny! It's supposed to be a romantic, ha! That's funny! I ramantic comedy involving Harry Potter an dPansey Parkinson!!! I laugh at that! They would never go together! It doesn't work! She's in love with Draco and he's well....who's he in love with? He did like cho, but in the 6th book..I'll let you other ppl that HAVN'T read the books, minds wonder on what harry's odne lately. For those who DO know, odn't ruin this for me. People should read them, there quite good. And that's something I would say. great! I'm comenting on how I coment! AGH!!!

ok, I'm back to normal. Here's the damn site! Go! http://fanfiction.mugglenet.com/viewstory.php?sid=16626

It's I think Harry comenting on some stupid shirt. I don't know...it's an odd begining to a romantic comedy...very funny. He talks to himself! Hee hee hee! I'll jsut let you read. BYE! Gloria

I know I mention Harry Potter alot, but I read a story that Harry made a snowball. He said something about it. it made me think. I know, I never say that I think. But, you know how you need both hands to make a snowball? Well, it's like need two other people to make you whole. I feel like I have more, but less...at the same time. I'm emotional right now b/c of the story. It's a sweet story and it's a little confusing, but, hey! Who said they all have had to be simple to understand? I know......I need a group of people, a fire place, a cup of hot chocolate, and the many, many memories we all had together. (key word, had) Well, I don't know. I feel like ranting, but being nice about other shit. I don't work until mon b/c tomorrows' my "Personal Holidsay", as Dura puts it.

I don't know, it's a rather different day, I guess. I'm making a snowman/woman tomorrow. I thinkn I need to apreciate things more. You know, the little things people do. To help me out? They do it for no reason and I think we take it for granted. I want to have my friends and have those special bonds Harry, Hermione and Ron share, but who will that be? Michelle, you have Kayla and Mike. Kaitlyn, you have Juatin and Bryn. Kari, you have Ben and, well, I don't know who else. But everyone has someone to hold them together. I guess if I try to make a snowball, it wouldn't really work......................I don't have two others to help me make it, i guess, not close enough to come right over.

I was also thinking about soemthing a teacher told me. She said that the Myans (don't know/care if that's spelt right) think the world is going to end...May 5,....2011....THAT'S MY COUSIN'S BIRTHDAY! I guess this has been on my shoulders too. I don't see the world being in existnace after that day, let alone after that year. I don't know, I guess it's reality that we can't have the simple pleasures of life that our parents have now. How are we supposed to have it beyond that day? Well, I'm gonna stop thinking...I need some sleep...I have a headache from crying over that story. If you want to just read it, it's a one-shot story. http://fanfiction.mugglenet.com/viewstory.php?sid=37930 Enjoy! xoxo Gloria

Hey ppl. new pic. It's from a year ago at christmas time. I still look the same, except for the glasses. I got new ones b/c i was getting head aches and the dr said that I have astignatism (h/e you spell it) in my eyes. I guess it's a family trait, b/c my mom has it too. My glasses R more rectangular and black and the inside is pink. If I'm in the sun, you can see the pink more then the black. There pretty cool.

Well, I got to open two gifts tonight. One from my grama. She gave me a pink quilted blanket that came with a pillow shame. Then $100 from my mummy and daddy. Later this evening after everyone left by 7, my sis was asked to just put the small things in the dishwasher and to wash w/e doesn't fit in it. I came upstairs to bring the big bag of wrapping paper(my neghews and neices came over and opened their presents from me and my parents) and she had the nerve to ask me to wash the big shit when I heard my parents tell her to wash everything. How bogas is that?! She was trying to get out of doing nething. But I ignored the question and she eventually got off her ass and washed them. This morning she was mad b/c someone started the washing machine. Well, the water gets cold if you're taking a shower at the same time the machine is going. She came into my room and yelled at me! I yelled right back! She then called my mom and yelled at ther. My mom yelled right back. I was about to punch her in the face. I would have done it, but I know that since it's christmas eve, not to say a word. I know other ways to take her off her high horse. She then chipped an awsome christmas mug I bought from Target. It's white with a silver snow flake and the top has silver around it. VERY CUTE! People even said it was! And she goes and chips the top of it! She was claiming it was slippery! My ass! She can find soo many ways to piss me off. She did it all day. I was tempted to jsut, not even give her her x-mas present.

Well, I guess taht's all. I saw a few family members and had a few good laughs. Nothing huge. I'll let you know what I got tomorrow or the day after. G2G!!! Merry Christmas, Happy Holidays and Happy New Year!

I know I havn't really written anything great lately, but I just don't have nething to say, really. I'm off all week...with nothing to do.........help, please?! I saw Narnia for the 4th time today. My mom wanted to see Rumer and I didn't and they started 15 min apart. So she sat w/me in the theatur until her movie started and then when it was done, she came and sat w/me and saw the last 1/2 hour. interesting? I think so. The guy that was at the counter, said she could. How nice is he? very. Well, after about 1/2 of it, I was a little bored, seeing as I already knew what was gonna happen. But it was worth the whole $5 I paid. but the concessions cost more then the frickin movie. How pathetic am I? Yeah, I'm bored.......I was bored enough to read 7 chapters from a book called, "Rebel Angel's" by Libba Bray. It's a very good book and the book "A Great and Terrible Beauty" came b/4 this one. It's like the beginning of the girls' life. If your bored, read 'em. I like some parts, but it's getting a little borring, me reading almost all the time. I can't come on here until like, 8 b/c my mom and dad get phone calls from my grampa. I guess you could say that my life is getting borring. I'm an hour away from anything considered exciting. I want to be back w/my friends! :( I guess I can only say that I'm sad and I miss you all. I gotta go, gotta find something other then HP fanfic to read. I'll prolly be on here reading something just for no reason at all. I hope everyone has a great new year!

                             Love ya, Gloria

"No One" By Aly & AJ

I am movin' through the crowd

Tryin' to find myself

Feel like a guitar that's never played

Will someone strum away

And I ask myself

Who do I wanna be

Do I wanna throw away the key

And invent a whole new me

And I tell myself

No one, no one - don't wannd be

No one but me

You are movin' through the crowd

Tryin' to find yourself

Fellin' like a doll on a shelf

Will someone take you down

And you ask yourself

Who do I wanna be

Do I wanna throw away the key

And invent a whole new me

Gotta tell myself

No one, no one - don't wanna be

No one but me

Your life plays out on the shadows of the wall

You turn the light on to erase it all

You wonder what it's like to not feel worthless

So open all the blinds and all the curtains

No one, no one - don't wanna be

No one but me

We are ovin' through the crowd...

Sorry I havn't been on, I've been going out and hanging w/some ppl, so this week wasn't a complete bore or lose for that matter. I found out that a guy friends' had a crush on my since we first met. I told him he had PLEANTY of chances, but he never took them. He never actually took a chance and asked me out. He's got a problem w/his g/f's rents right now. It's a long story and I'm gonna leave it at that. well, i've got to go, I'm babysitting and I have to be their at 6:30...I've got other shit to do......happy new year!

Hey, life sux sometimes. I know some people care, but no one really shows it nemore. I'm having a debate in my head and It's giving me a headache, so here it goes:

Should I delet this account and just keep my story blog?

I'm not on here very often, but that blog is for my creativity and I know I'm a great writer, but I sometimes come up w/a great story line, layout thingy, but I don't know if I should even be on here nemore. i'm 20 yrs old and I guess I have to grow up........see you around...Gloria

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MICHELLE!   I know I didn't say it yesterday, but I'm saying it now!

Ok, my date today was ok. NOt the best time though. he was all for our date, but he was trying not to fall asleep I guess. He works 10pm - 6am on fri. and sat., so it was hard for us to really go and do nething, but i had a good time. We went to Carribou and then back to his house and we watched Hostage, the movie w/Bruse Willis, which I liked alot. I'm gonna go and buy the movie along w/Wedding Crashers. Well, after we started to watch Modern Marvles as they did a segmint on brewing beer and I didn't know 1/2 of it was made from weed. That's conferting. Well, his mom asked to speak to him and after 5 min, he came back and I had to leave. I don't think she likes me, maybe it's b/c of my age, maybe i'm not good enough for him, or pretty enough, but w/e the reason, I'm sure it's the right 1. I'm hoping it's not b/c of my age. He's had a crush on me and that made me look at him in a different way. He's fun and we make each other laugh and smile. But, hey, it's him moms problem. I'm not gonna let it get me down, so I'm gonna let it be at that. Well, i should prolly go, I need some sleep after staying up til 3am last night. I hope everyone had a great weekend...what's left of it at least. Lots-a-luv, Gloria

ps I got a .45 cent raise on fri!!!!! Now I'm making $9.95 an hour!

hey I thought I should come and say something.........i don't know what to say....dura's ok, been boring since I was put in a dif area. Nothing other then that has changed....other then me being bored.........i tried to read, but I think a guy that's 30 and married likes me...:( he's nice and all, I just don't like him like that. well, i'm a little bored, so I'm gonna go adn look for stuff on here. I might even change the theme again. Just to something more....happy? and not depressing? Well, i'll see everyone when ever. OH! good luck on the movie thing alan!!! Love ya's all, Gloria

ps my grama's out of the hospital. She was in all week and now she's doing alot better! :D I'm so happy!!! :) I was really worried there for a while...i thought that...she......might go......i'm happy she didn't!!! I hope when she does, it's in her sleep. that's how I want to go. I don't want to feel anything.

the sky darkens as I stare at the water of the lake.

I try to think everything through.

what I did.

what went wrong.

what i could have said to make you say that

say the things I most loath.

say the things I hate.

say the word that I want to hear out of those lips.

i hate you at the same time I love you.

i loath you and wish you'd die in your sleep.

wish i'd die along w/you.

i loath you with a passion, yet i can't stop looking into those eyes.

those great, piercing, honey warm eyes.

the same honey brown eyes that intreigue me into believing every word was true.

but none of it was.

nothing was real.

it was fake, taunting, loving and hatred you said.

you told me you loved me but you lied.

every lie you let escape from your lips were hurting me and you didn't care.

even when i slapped you across that pale face, you showed no emotion.

nothing was showin in those eyes i thought you died on the spot.

but you just kept looking away, not a damn care in the world about how I felt, about that stupid bet.

i now know you didn't want me.

you wanted the money over love.

you wanted something because you were despret because you lost it.

you lost everything just those feew moths ago.

now you've lost me.

i'm never returning to your side.

i'll never love you as i once did.

i hope you die of shame for this depression you brought on me.

I've been driven for an hour, just talking to the rain.

You say I've been driven you crazy, and it's keepin you away.

So just give me one good reason, tell me why i should stay.

'Cause I don't wanna waste another moment, in saying things we never meant to say.

and i take it just a little bit, i hold my breath and count to ten.

I've been waiting for a chance to let you in.

(chorus)

If I just breathe, let it fill the space between.

I'll know everything is alright, breathe

every little piece of me, you'll see

everything is alright, if i just breathe

Well it's all so overrated, in not saying how you feel.

So you end watching chances fade, and wondering what's real.

And I give you just a little time, i wonder if you realize.

I've been waiting 'til I see it in your eyes.

(repeat chorus)

So I whisper in the dark, hoping you'll hear me.

Do you hear me?

(repeat chorus)

Everything is alright if I just breathe.

I've been drivin for an hour, just talkin to the rain.

ok, i'm a little bored and tired right now. Well I'm all ready for the summer to be here!!! the winter and cold is getting to me and I want to go swimming in the lake!!! I want to feel free in there! It;s like wieghing nothing!!! lol, I can't wait til I can go to the lake after a hard day at work and swim in the cool water! It's a 10-15 minute drive from my work and the same home. I want the summer damit!!! :D I have a few things picked out that I'm gonna wear this summer when i'm NOT working. I'm gonna wear more skirts, tank tops and a few different swim suits. Which reminds me. I have to go and get a few now that i might be losing wieght. Yes, i think I'm fat. I have a stomach and I'm gonna try and get it down. I'm planning to lift wieghts or something to tone up my body b/c that's all I really have to do and going to a health club...really isn't worth $75 a month i don't think.

Well, I do have a nice ass and if I remember right, i gained boobage the last time I did this. that was like last year and I had to get into a dress. If neof my friends were at prom last year, you know what I'm talking about. I'm also gonna plan to find out what's up w/my back. When I sit for a long period of time, it starts to hurt. I think I'm not used to sitting this long nemore. I'll sit when I drive an hour, then it'll start to tweek on me. I can't usually pull over and take nething b/c i never take alieve w/me or nething to drink it down. newayz, i want the summer to come so i can look cute and sexy in a jean skirt and tank with my suit under it!!!! :)

Ok, my oldest step sis is having her baby March 7, 2006!!!! That's when the dr said she's due. The baby is a girl adn they named her Milla. My dad called my sis and said, "Can Milla come out and play?" He was joking acourse!!! lolz, he does that when ever a new baby is born in my family. He even did that when my cousin had his baby!!! and there not even related!! Now that little guy is already like, 1 or 2 this year and he looks alot like him!!! When I asked to see a photo of Joe my aunt said to just look at a baby pic of Gordy. lol, the male genes in that family aresoo crazy!!! I'm hoping my kids look like me. Not a spited image, but I want them to have my crazy hazen (green in one lighting and hazel in another.) eyes!!! I love my eyes soo much!!! No one really knows the real color. I guess I really don't know either.

Well, I'm getting even more tired, so I'll be going now. I have another question for you ppl!!! Is a small peck on the cheek ok for a second date????? I'm going out w/that one guy again next weekend and I don't want to rush nething, i'm hoping a small peck on the cheek isn't too forward. Help on the advice..please?!?!?!?!?!

Ok, love ya's guyz!!! BIEZ! Gloria

ps i have another chapter up for those following "That's Life" This one is the last chapter! Then a new one is going up!!! This time a fanfic!!! roseprincess85 thanks for everyone that's reading them! I'd also like you to tell me how horrible it is!!! It may only be 4 chapters long, but "That's Life" wasn't supposed to be that long. My other story is gonna be, well, borring at first, but then it gets to be great hecktic! For all charactors!!! Just read and wwait it out! It could even be up tomorrow night or monday!

I know what your thinking, I'm crazy. But is it really true that he's hormonally cunfused? Acording to MTV the star apparently is.... J/K! Their actually talking about the charactor...no surprise there. Well Dan's nominated for Best Performance by a Hormonally Confused Teen...hmm...makes you think sometimes. Here are other nominees:

- Best Performance by a Hobbit Gone Wild:  Elijah Wood   "Sin City"

- Best Former-It-Boy-In-Disguise:  Heath Leadger   "Lords of Dogtown"

- Best Hair-Raisinig Performance:  Steve Carell   "The 40-Year-Old Virgin"

- Best Sleazeballs in Sheep's Clothing:  Owen Wilson and Vince Vaghn   "Wedding Crashers"

- Best Actress Playing in Dire Need of Powerful Meditation:  Anna Faris   "Just Friends"

- Actor Best Able to make us Forget Val Kilmer and George Cloony:  Christian Bale   "Batman Begins"

- Best Performance Seemingly Based on a Disgraced One-Gloved Pop Star:  Johnny Depp   "Charlie and the Chocolet Factory"

Nice job ppl...even though theres onlt ONE girl...hhmmm...newayz, i like the nominees...not bad. Love ya's all Gloria

ok i hope this theme works for a while until i can find something else, which i dought. Well, tlife has gotten better, my grama's home from the hospital doing better. I'm doing something other then putting hinge holes in doors and the damned stickers. I'm puttying doors. (wtf you ask?) It's putting this puddy shtuff on the joints of certain doors b/c there not always even at first, so that's what happens to the doors b/4 they go to get a hindge hole and sticker. Fun huh? yes it is b/c the day goes by faster and when i run out for like 1/2 an hour, i can just go and sweep the floor by the hindge machines. hee hee hee this lady i work with hates me b/c i'm special enough to get away from that god forsaken area. Thank god i don't have to put up w/her bullshit all day. i was gonna go pshyco young bitchass on her today if she wouldn't shut the fuck up! I swear, all she does is bitch and complain about how, "We're not doing enough!", "We're going too slow!", "You don't know how to do anything! I'll do it myself!". I swear if she starts saying shit like that, i'm gonna reach over and put my hand around her throat...but that may cause for me to lose my job, so i'll think of an alternate way to get her to shut up..ok gotta go wash dishes...biez! <3 Gloria

ok, i'm not asking much, but can someone please tell me what they think about "Draco's Retreat"? It's m,y fanfic i've been working on for a few days. For some reason, i have all these idea's w/HPnad it's odd, i know. But I like how I came up with this story. It'll long, yes, but it's a good story line, i think. please? someone? R/R??? biez, gloria

ps nothing different then that...maybe a new theme by tomorrow if i can find somethign new.

ok, i'm at home and my date was cancelled b/c the guy said he pulled a double shift and i was ok w/it...just a little disapointed though...it was an okk night until i met up w/some other guy friends of mine. Both fun and we went and played pool. I sunk maybe 20 balls in the 2 hrs we played...i know, i know, i need to practice right? Right and that's why i'm gonna be going to this place by my house every friday night and play a game if the tables arn't full...it's a rumor that this place has like, 3 tables or so....well, after pool we went to our trademark place, Perkins. lolz, it's our trademark place b/c that's fast food, slow, as a guy i know put it into words. We saw him, his bro, a grl adn another guy i know. They all went to my school, except the grl...well, it was a pretty great night! After Perkins we went to 1 of the 2 guyz houses and palyed poker for chips not real money, seeing as I don't have necash right now, even though i did get a raise, but i had to pay my parents for these things:

Car: $100 a month

Rent: $100 a month

Internet: $20 a month

The reason i'm paying my parents for the car, is b/c they paid for it and i just pay them back for it...i'm hoping to get money saved up so i can move out to an appartment above like an old resteraunt...they still have those and it's like, cheaper then at a building...my aunt was paying $350 a month for rent were she lives. She just bought her first home...i'm just waiting on the pics she's sending me!!! Well, i g2g, i'm very tired right now, i'm practically fallin' asleep right here at the comp...biez, time for some sleep. <3 Gloria

ok, my weekend was soo scarry...well so far.

First: my sis totals her car and puts a guy in the hospital and she's got bruses. She's complaining every 5 minutes and won't take a thing b/c she's stubborn. my rents seem to be babying her. I'm not gonna b/c she can walk it just takes her a little more time.

Second: my mum is talking to my grama, she seems to be fine, then she drops the phone. I thought it was by accident, but come to find out, she has stabbing-with-knife-and-the-blade-is-being-turned-in-circles kind of pain. My dad sat her down in a chair in the kitchen and I tell my grama she'd call her back. But my mum was in soo much pain that 1/2 an hour later my dad calls for an ambulance and it takes then 15-20 minutes to get to my house. their supposed to be fast right? WRONG! the ppl that came first, local ppl, looked her over and then the parametics looked her over. She thought she was having a stroke or heart attack (To my horror, and it would have been a nightmare for me, it could have been...my birth dad bied from a massive heart attack when I was only 14 going on 15. my life was a complete mess after that and now it seems to be ok.), which we found out she wasn't. (THANK GOD!!!) Well we decided to take her to the hospital 10 minutes from my house (how convenient? very...sorta). The ppl there put her on morphene and did the whole 9 yards for test...plus a fucking cat-scan. What did they find??? NOT A FUCKING THING!!!!!! They couldn't find wtf caused her so much pain this morning!!! AND on top of that, i went to visit her for like 20 minutes and talk to her, for my own assurance, that she would be ok and to ask how long she'd be there. Well, it was all silant, go figure...and my mom said, "Girls, be good for dad." I wanted to start crying, it's not something you hear from your mother, who's in pain, who's lying 1/2 consious in a fucking hospital bed!!!! But I held them back. she then went quiet and her hand was on the bar thing. her hand fell, like there was no life in it to hold on nelonger. It was lifeless. i wanted to cry. she wasn't moving (at least I didn't see her moving) and then the machine beeped and she jolted awake. talk about almost losing your mother. I was happy she didn't die. I left a few minutes after that, with reasurrance that she wasn't going to die...not today nehow.

the rest of today went by ok....the fucking over paid bastards couldn't find what caused the fucking problem and now she's on two medications along with 4 or 5 others she's taking already. *takes big, deep breath of positive and lets out negative.* I need something to releave my stress, something none smoking. Well, this has helped me greatly. I now know that my mother is completely safe and she will not die netime soon.

ok gotta go, tired b/c today i had to distract myself from worrying about my mum. I'm exausted from it you could say. Well, I guess this is good night.

                                 <3 Gloria

ps I put a new header made by underground1986!!! thank you michelle!

Ok I saw this preview for a movie w/Antonio Banderaz (dunno if i spelt that right; the guy that plays Zorro) and it sounds pretty cool! Well this is the over view of the movie and if you have "Wedding Crashers" You can see the preview on the dvd. I'm a sucker for movies w/alot of dancing. I love "Dirty Dancing(both versions)" and nemusical. I don't know what it is, but I just love watching people dance around! It looks soo awsome and I guess it's something I'd try to do. Which I'm thinking of taking up Latin Ballroom dancing. "DD: Havana Nights"...a huge dance scene and you'll see why I like it. Not the hole kissing, but it looks pretty cool. Well, I gotta go get some sleep. It's early yes, but I've been working at 6am for a week adn 1/2 now and I think soon, like, April, I'll be back to my 6am - 4:30pm...10 1/2 hours may not sound fun, but it'll be like $500 a week...almost...but still! It's more money for me!!! Plus, my supervisor said that in the next year, since we're going to be getting some new machines and expanding the business, we'll have to hire 30 more people in the next year or so...so if ne1 needs some money fast, it's weekly and it's worth the money!!! Trust me! I should know!!! Biez!

A former professional ballroom dancer volunteers at a New York public school to teach dance. The hip-hop instincts of his students soon clash with his ballroom methods, so he teams up with them to create a new style of dance. Eventually the students trust him and he becomes their mentor.

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ok, I'm bored right now and awaiting daddy so i can have my step-sis cell phone # so i can call and get my mittons back. I havn't had them since new years and I really want them back, dammit!!!  I baby-sat for her and her friend and left them at the place I baby-sat at...so i havn't had them since and my steerling wheel is fuckin' COLD as ICE in the morning, so i want them back. I'm going by my other step-sis house to see her and her nursery!!! YAY! :D I can't wait til March!!! I can't wait to see her baby! I know she's gonna be just the cutest lil thing! I know that when I have kids, I want them to be adorable!! hahaha! Like that's gonna happen netime soon..DOUGHT IT!!! newayz...

I want the snow to go away! BEGONE WITH YOU!!! and don't come back til thanksgiving!!! I want it to be warm, sunny, a nice breeze! But not too chilly. YAY DADDY"S HOME! Ok gotta go!!! Love yas, Gloria

ok Valentines day is the worst day invented EVER!!! The candy companies just want another reason to sell their damned candy and make us all fat and not wanted! ok i'm going a little overboard about that, but i almost came home and took out my little thing of Bryer's Natrual Vanilla ice cream and ate it all and it's not even opened yet. For those of you that eat that kind of ice cream, you know how much that is. I know it's not a great way of looking at Valentine's day, but hey! Us single people need a way to know that we're lioved and what other way then eating that much ice cream in just hrs??? But I didn't so be happy I didn't gain a few pounds even though I could prolly use it, seeing as I'm ONLY 130 pounds. I think I'm dead on for my age, idk. but other then that, the fuckin night shift is lazy with a L! They left two jobs un-puddied and un-sanded!!! GRRRR I just want to hit thm all over the head with a metal bat!!! I can use there heads for practise!!! :D Ok that I know is a funny site. but newayz. I found out theres other apartments right across the street from where the other one is and I guess they're all remodleled. YAY! I don't have to put up with a shitty smelling one! lolz, ok I havn't called on them, b/c I havn't found the ad for them, so I'm gonna go in to town fri afternoon and make a little visit to the people of the small town. I know what your thinking!!! A big time city girl can't handle the small town life. RIGHT! I've lived in a small town now for4 1/2 monthes. I think I can handle a town just 20 minutes away from my rents and a block away from my grama and grampa. well, I think that's all.....if I think of more to rant about I'll come back. BIEZ!!! ANd Happy Valentine's Day to any singles out there!!!

stolen from aw 

1. HUGS FROM BEHIND ARE THE BEST. EVER. no lie
2. Grab her hand when you walk next to each other (don't make her grab yours).
3. When standing, wrap your arms around her.
4. Cuddle with her...
5. DON'T FORCE HER TO DO ANYTHING.
6. Write little notes.
7. Compliment her Honestly.
8. When you hug her, hold her in your arms as long as possible.
9. Be super sweet to her.
10. Call her at night to wish her sweet dreams.
11. Comfort her when she cries.
12.Wipe away her tears
13. Love her with all your heart.
14. Pick her up and flirt with her (she'll scream and say put me down, but really she loves it).
15. Be a gentleman (hold the door for her). yes
16. Don't let your friends talk trash about her, it'll get back to her!
& DON'T ever act differently in front of your friends than you do when its just you and her!!!!
17. Take her for a long walk at night!
18. Always bring her ursweatshirt where ever you go outside when its cold to comfort her and hold her close
19. NEVER LIE TO HER!!!!!! because then she will think everything you ever said to her was a lie, even "i love you"

Girls - repost this if you think it's sweet

Guys - repost this if you would do any of it

ps, I really hope everyone had an amazing valentines day, even though i was sorta left out a little, but I did get a cute card from grama!!!

(fuckin' MN weather) I hate the cold!!! It's -32 degrees out and I'm fuckin' cold! My dad decided to put the heat on so it's warm and we don't freeze to death(hell has offically frozen over) my dad never turns up the heat...but only when my sis isn't home.  I hate the cold! It's the middle of February, well, almost, and it's below 0!!! how the fuck does that happen?! Just last month, it was how warm??? lik....40 something?!?! brrrrrrrrrrrr...(chattering teeth) Luckily I was only gone from home for a lil while and I don't plan to go newhere else this weekend! I filled my car w/gas so I'm all good to go mon morning...I don't have to work til 7am monday!!! That's the + to this weekend and never ending winter!!! well, I gotta go! I'm gonna go watch a movie adn read! I just got done reading 'Son of The Mob' By Gordon Korman. It's hilariuos b/c it's random in the beginning and I love it b/c theres funny shit! ohh, I can't wait until I can get the next book! Well, I'm gonna go crawl into a blancket and read some more of another book...don't knoww hat yet(stares at 5 shelf book case) I'll let you know what I'm reading next! Biez and keep warm to the rest of MN ppl!!!  Gloria

ok I wanted something nw for my blog, so I went to a site belonging to my very good friend Michelle or known as underground1986. She has her own sites for headers and plugins and backgrounds! I'm borrowing/stealing the header and other things until I find something new. I hope everyone's having a good presidents day. Biez!

ps dracos_retrest_chapter_5_an_old_friend is up!

ok, so I have a lil problem about sat night....late night around 10 I'm going to a friends house (guy) and I'm going from there to a house that will be occupying about 3 to 5 other guys...idk about you ppl, but 1 girl, 5 guys, i don't think it mixes very well.....let me know what you think.

hey, i thought i'd make a real update, but I really don't have nething else to say right now.......except that my header I stole from my friend Kayla's photo thingy... :D Don't hate me!*covers head with arms* I like te pic and I stole it! so there! *sticks out tong* ok, now something of a real lil problem.sat.....don't know if I should still go...we'll prolly play druth or dar til 5am neway...and being the only girl I dont' think'll be too bad..it's happened before and the last time I played it with all guys, I ended up making out with two of the guys...both AMAZING kissers....well one I'm sure still is...the other..uhu..needs preactice? well, neway...a little bored, gonna go read something..or at least try and not have my mind on tomorrow night. I've got fuckin' butterflies!!! How the fuck did this happen?! I never get nurvous b/4 hanging w/these guys! and that's the truth! I've never really gotten nurvous around thm...or maybe it's b/c one of them just broke up with his 1 yr g/f and i like him...he's a bit young though.....amazing kisser and i had an INTERESTING conversation w/him about his now x-g/f....she wouldn't go all the way, even though they did SO much shit...she's a dumb bitch if you ask me...neway, I'm gonna go now.  Gloria

ps, dura sux ass still......i got a $335.29 check today..i can't wait to see how much my next check will be! Over time city w/2 12 hr days! ok, I'm getting ahead of this, bye!

ok I'm bored and I think I came up with the best idea for a book...but I'm not telling you what it's about! ha ha ha! I thought about this all day and couldn't wait to start writting it! yay ^.^ hee hee..ok two kids, twins, a boy and girl, get into deep shit this time and their parents send them away...far away! I'll let your minds wander on the thought...well if you don't liek the idea well you can just kiss my white, DADDY'S GIRL PRINCESS ASS! hee hee...lolz, g2g and wirte! <3 Gloria

ps, michelle I might need a lil help w/some details on some things for the school they go to......and the twins look like twins I know. SRY JUSTIN!!! I'm borrowing you and your sis features for this one! Don't hurt me! *Hids under chair, hands over head*

Hey, I was going thru some old notebooks and I found some with some songs I wrote a while ago, I'm not sure they're negood, but I'll post them neway..here it goes!

'Driving Away'

She drives away down the freeway, windows open, radio blairing,

  sunglasses cover her face, diamonds in the corners of her eyes.

She's finally free, free from his evil grasp. those hands that hurt with

  the touch just millimeters away. The same grasp making her drive far

  away to the ends of the earth. Away from his evil world.

He'll be waiting, but she's already miles away. A she turns corners, she

  doesn't look back, keeps driving for her won safty and love for all life.

She's free tpo view life as anyone in this world does. She's across

  the border at a motel. She looks at her reflection free to smile again. She

  smiles for her newly found life.

'The Night We Met'

I walk to my car, drive to the local mall. Why does it feel like you know

  where I am? I try to think back to when we where happy.

  The memories are gone. Only  and only hurt lingers in my mind as I eat a pretzel.

I want the night we met back. The happiness, jokes, smiles, but it's ancient

  history as we fight every night before we drift to sleep.

I'm fronted by a friend. He asks what's wrong. I tell him as tears glisten

  down my face. That night you don't come home, but go out and almost

  jump off the bridge.

I find you, you can't jump. We talk and it's over but we'll never forget that

  night. Everythings changing so fast, I can't grasp anything. I'm giving

  you luck as you give me the keys and disappear into the darkness of the rainy night.

Ok, that's two of the five peoms/songs...i don't know what to call 'em so they can be pongs...don't ask, I don't know what the word eans, I made it up...I came up with something for later in my book! "One will enjoy pain as the other endures pain." I don't know, it sounds pretty cool, it jsut jumped into my mind last week and I'm surprised I even remember it. I thought of it while sanding inserts (my permanent job) and it's pretty cool saying. but neways, I don't have nething else to really say, so I'm gonna go...BIEZ!!! <3 Gloria

What's Your Kissing Element?

You're Earth!

You love being treated like a princess, and you prize commitment and loyalty in a relationship. A Boyfriend fills a practical need for you (He's like a permanent party date), so you'd rather have one than not. Your Prince is probably a Taurus, Virgo, Capricorn.  5484 other people got this result! This quiz has been taken 11586 times. 47% of people had this result.

really now? I thought I was a pouper! *yells through-out kingdom*

Ok, forgot to mention that I'm writting a book..a few actually, one I already told you about, the other is about four friends..three kidnapp the fourth to go on a road-trip for a few days and I'm thinking of giving it a horrific plot.maybe? with a little romance thrown in??? Maybe someone dies? I'm not really sure, I'm only on the part after the girl is kidnapped right off her driveway(litterally) other then that..nothing much really..OH I'm writting another about a guy and lady that fell for eachother in H.S. soo fast, but it has a bit of a supernatural thing to it..They fall through their schools' foyer in the second chapter..they have to finid out what they each did wrong back then so they can come out of their coma...got the part where they go into it and where they end up just after...even part with a dr checking on them..their breathing on their on though..but neway..that's all the book thingys I'm writting! Hope I can keep going with them all...My favorite lines from HP4:

"Oh my god! I killed Harry Potter!"

"Ron Weasley! You ruin Everything!"

"I would have taken her myself if she wasn't so bloody proud."

"Hey! My eyes aren't glistening with the ghost of my past!"

ok, lolz, you have to admit their funny! Oh and dan said Emma was never ugly....i guess, or something like that,....it's in the special featured when they talk about the Yule Ball, which, in my own opinion, Dan and Emma have the hotts for each other and they won't admit it to neone, but Felton like's Watson....hhmmm....makes you wonder what REALLY happens on the set of HP, Don't it?! lolz, ok gotta go! BIEZ

Ok, Milla was born at 12:50 on sat morning! YAY^.^ I'm soo happy! lolz, life is amazing, b/c it only takes one time to amount to a little baby and it's so amazing that we were all once that small. I didn't see Milla, but my rents and other sis went to see her. I guess she's itsy, and dark brown hair...well, I'm hoping to see her soon! :D neway, had a date on fri, had a BLAST!!! He knows who he is!

Thanks! You smelt really nice and it was the best time I've had in a long time! and 'Scarface' was completely different then what I thought it would be. Yeah, there's alota killing and swearing, but there's also some funny things the ppl say, even though the WHOLE movie's about drugs, it's still funny to watch something that's, I don't know, 25-30 years old. Back then, it was a huge thing to swear like they do and it wasn't common, but if you walk into a H.S like the 1 I went to, it's that type of language and I guess you get used to it, somehow.....I know I did. So, when my manager says, 'Shit!' and then apoligizes, I can only laugh, b/c I've heard worse and even said it a few times myself. But it's no big deal if you only say it once in a while, but saying it almost every other word..kinda gets annoying if you ask me. *sighs and stares off into space* neway, hoping to get away for a while next weekend! I have fri off, so I'm happy about that! (even though I had tues off this week and it was only a 4 1/2 work week for me.) It'll still be nice to have fri off...so, Miss Michelle, if you'd like me to give you a ride home, let me know! I can pick you up from school! and don'tworry about gas money, i have plenty...speaking of gas, it's getting pricy again...I strongly dis-aprove of how Bush is handling that part of our economy...........ok I'm not gonna get all political about it, so I'm going to leave that alone....I just don't like him.....neway, I should prolly go...I don't really have that much to say right now.........BIEZ!! Lots-a-luv, Gloria

Ok, I was a lil bored before, so I found this site, accidentally, I guess and I found the lyrics to a song I've been looking for! Courtousy of http://www.houseoflyrics.com/d/index.html for the song lyrics for this song!

"Gimmie Gimmie Gimmie (A Man After Midnight)" By A-Teens

Half past twelve

Half past twelve

And I'm watching the late show

In my flat all alone

How I hate to spend

The evening on my own

Autumn winds

Blowing outside my window

As I look around the room

And it makes me so depressed

To see the gloom

There's not a soul out there

No one to hear my prayer

Gimmie gimmie gimmie

A man after midnight

Won't somebody help me

Chase the shadows away

Gimmie Gimmie Gimme

A man after midnight

Take me through the darkness

To the break of the day

Movie stars

Find the end of the rainbow

With a fortune to win

It's so different from

The world I'm living in

Tired of TV

I open the window and

I gaze into the night

But there's nothing there to see

No one in sight

There's not a soul out there

No one to hear my prayer

Gimmie gimmie gimmie

A man after midnight

Won't somebody help me

Chase the shadows away

Gimmie Gimmie Gimme

A man after midnight

Take me through the darkness

To the break of the day

ok, i came to blog real quick after seeing my inbox had nothing new...I love the fact that we're getting snow:

1. Because it gives me a reason to go in late.

2. Because they can't complain about ppl being late b/c of road conditions.

3. I canwork a shorter amount of time tomorrow even if I stay til 4:30pm...which i hope DOESN'T HAPPEN!

4. My week will be going by faster and I can look forward to my 3 day weekedn next weekend.

So, yeah, I like the snow, b/c it's the perfect kind to make a snow man...which I'm prolly going to do. Now, where did I put my gloves. *searches in a box on the floor in the closet* Here they are! hee hee I like the snow like this, but tues is going to be the WORST! it's always bad the day AFTER we get a ton of snow...it's going to be frigid and I'm not going to want to leave my house.

newho, I should prolly go.......gotta try and set my damn alarm clock...See you Fri Michelle!!!

ps I changed it a little I know, but I really like this background...michelle made it..

"Keep Me Safe, Fly Away"

Been trying to tell what this feeling is, but can't.

I'm soo happy and excited that we're together,

But I dread somethings that are looking dreary in the future.

I can't wait until I can hug you again. It was a feeling I can't explain.

I felt as if I were flying hiher then a bird or plain,

With you by my side, holding my hand, making me feel safe.

I love this feeling and I hope it never seazes to exist between us.

This is new and I want it to stay forever, the feeling of flying.

Over the tree tops, over oceans as blue as the clearest sea.

Fly with me away from here, for just one night,

Like we did just last week.

It was amazing, how I felt safe in your arms.

Keep me safe.

Safe from their evil hold that can make the nightmares come true.

I trust you, so take my hand and lets fly away from this never ending winter,

And place of nightmares that will never end.

Don't let this flying sensation leave me.

It's amazing! I love this. Don't let me fall, don't drop me.

Ok, that was totally random!! lolz, this poem is for my boyfriend! Don't ask why I wrote this, but I was a little bored and it jsut came to me! See you fri sweet'ems! lolz, ok biez everyone!

Purgatorial creature, neither pure nor dirty: I feel for you. Until I learned to accept my own darker instincts, I was once just like you.

You've been known to indulge your devilish urges, but you will also reject them forcefully, and perhaps you feel pulled in two directions at once. Only time will tell which way you go. As people get older they rarely remain in this half-good/half-naughty category. Some settle down and ascend to married and decent bliss. Some follow a more carnal destiny.

In the battle between sexual heaven and hell, you stand in no-man's-land. Good and evil wait on either side. The big question is: which side do you face, and which side do you keep in your rear?

My test tracked 1 variable How you compared to other people your age and gender:

You scored higher than 7% on hellishness

Ok, bordemmm...really sucks? I know everyone's prolly over this whole snow in March thing..I knwo I am. I got like, prolly the next to the most snow then neone in the state..just b/c of where I live.....I don't like it very much, but hey, what can i do?

neways, I guess I could do a REAL update..even though that's prolly what I should do..kinda?

Well, as no one except a select few..2 people...know that I have gone through alot the past 6 months. I have been able to laugh at stupid things..like the whole car-in-ditch thing that happened on Monday...Michelle you know what I mean, lolz. Well, I have caught myself smiling at the stupidest things and I guess I'm happy with how my life has turned out. I never, ever thought I could ever be as happy as I once was. But now that I've gotten through the toughest part, I guess I'm truly happy. I do have a new boyfriend. *blushes and smiles shyly, with slight laugh* He knows who he is..lolz. He makes me happy and we laugh. We get along great, even though our age is different, we both have alot in common and we can laugh about alot of different things....he makes me happy and I guess that's what I am right now.  

I'm making money, and hoping to move out sometime by the middle or end of the summer. I'm shooting for my birthday at the very latest if i can get the apartment that I want. I'm really not good at saving money, but I guess after getting my taxes back and that, I have a good prtion put away and I'm finally getting my direct deposit done and hopefully that'll be good to go by next week! :) I guess money is what everyone needs and that's what I'm saving at best I can.

Well, dura's ok, I guess. I have tomorrow off, b/c I took it off a month ago...going to see some people tomorrow, so i'm getting out of the house...going bowling again...gotta go i guess, a little tired...bye.

It's back! I got it to work and hope this time it doesn't disappear in me! well, I am a little bored and I jsut wrote a whole lot, but I guess I still have things to say, but I'm not going to, b/c they sound just fine in my head, but they might come out wrong, so I'm not going to say anything. Well, hoping someone will listent o what I want to say and hoping to work things out w/them...gotsta go.. <3 Gloria

ps. oh, I'm currently reading 'The Giver' by Lois Lowery. Read it in middle school and LOVED it. It's amazing how a life in that book can be changed when you've never left the place you live to see what the outside world has to offer.

ok, random title...neway, had a great time w/ppl last night. Going bowling w/like 4 guys of which 2 were drunk, is funny! I was fuckin' losing to a fuckin' drunk! Had a bit of alchamohal myself...schmirnoff twisted thingy..black cherry...tastes like pop to me and I like that. As long as I don't taste the alchamohal, I'm all good. Well, i lost to drunks at bowling and a chick was surrounded by 3 guys. Of course, she was the usual blonde hair, skinny as a tooth pick and no boobs. Sorry girly, I had 4 guys and at least I don't look fuckin' anerexic! and at least I have boobs! Ok, I know I'm spelling words wrong, but hey! I'm on 4 hrs of sleep and Carribu...mmmm, mint condition...hee hee...lolz, found out about some interesting things and worked w/ppl that I had a problem with b/4..yay ^.^ neway, I'm hungry and gonna be leaving soon! but I had funn bowling at a place w/not alot of ppl...it was like, no one bowls at that place, it was that diserted..lolz...newho..biez! XoXo <3 Gloria

ps, I think I'm a lil buzzed from the drink, but it has like nothing in it, but I feel wierd....hhmmm, I'm wondering what it is.....if you ppl don't know, I'm not a drinker. I've never had a drink in my life...except that one time a few years ago at a friends b-day party...neway, bye!

Thank you Michelle for the cd's!!! I'm happy listening to the rock-classical-opera! It's awsome! hahaha! I stold Jake's word!!! he he he! neway, just thought I'd come on....bored and tired as all frick right now! I came hope around like 10....mum and dad left me in charge of 2 nieces and it was going all fine-n-dandy...until one wouldn't listen to me...*glares* yeah I'm tired and this is how I act when i'm tired and running off only 4 hrs of sleep, Carribu and caffine....not as hungry nemore..even though i'm not eating that much..but I guess that happens when you only get a few hrs of sleep a night. I'm an insomniac and it sucks! well, gotta go get some zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz...bye!

ps, my parents stole 'The Oldies Mix' *glares* I was in the middle of putting it on my computer...all well..bye!

Your Years at Hogwarts School of Witchcraft and Wizardry
Name
Age
House	GryffindorHufflepuffRavenclawSlytherin
Family Line	MugglebornHalf-BloodPure-Blood
Dated	James Potter
You are well known for	Blowing up the Potions classroom in 4th Year
Percentage of student body you shagged - 67%
How do the staff and students feel about you	Ahhh!! I want to have your babies!!

What Are You Haunted By? .::.Anime Pictures & Detailed Results.::.

Nature. You are haunted by the spierts of the destroyed forest, wetlands, ect. . . You probably care alot about nature. Thats why they decided to haunt you. Because you understand thier pain and thier cause. You probable trip alot on weeds and tree roots. Flower: Golden Goddess ( This kind in the picture ) Jewel: Emerlad Personality in a few words Nice Caring Haunted.  (ok that has a pretty picture!)   Your soul is from the Fire... You like to use strong colors!, like Red, yellow, and so on... You are funny and strong, and you can be in trouble a lot of times, you like to go out with your friends, your animal can be a dog, or a happy animal, you like hot or sunny days, you are a good person, you like to do funny things...and you can be very good...at making funny things and troubles! Go people like you!! ^-^ Congratulations!, Your Soul is from the Fire!     What Color is your Magic? White-You value honor and discipline. You believe in order and justice. Your magic is healing and pacifistic. At best you are kind and protective. At worst you are arrogant and closed-minded.       What Outlaw Star Charecter are YoU You are Melfina. You are a kind, caring and compassionate sort who sees beauty all around you. Every thing is new and exciting. You are innocent and naive but that isn't really a bad thing. You are a lover, not a fighter.

"Your Kisses"

I want to feel your breath among my skin. Kiss me as you used to.

I want those light kissed on my slepnder neck to be never ending in this winter wasteland.

Kiss me as if it were our last night together. Make love to me for love, not just to get laid.

Your green eyes are beautiful and full of so many things, I could almost make a never ending list.

I wish I read what you want me to know. I want to hear you whisper my name.

Whisper it and the caressing will be never ending in our last hour.

Your kisses are hard to forget. Even a week later i can still feel your tender, citris ones on my berry ones.

Kiss me lightly, like our first. I want to feel you breath my name and moan loud with out caring who walks in or hears us.

I can see ambition, want, need, caring, loving, and fun in those green orbs I get lost in.

I want to feel the airy kisses on my skin for never ending hours. No days!

Please, give me pleasure as you did when we first kissed.

 This was written by a guy who has years of experience. Believe me, most of them are true about girls....

1. Whatever you do, don't just show up at her house...she runs around in her underwear just like we do.

2. DON'T CHEAT ON HER. It may seem foolproof, but girls tell each other everything about everything. Trust me, she WILL find out and you will be shit

3. Beware of every single male relative and all of her guy friends. Any of them would kick your ass at the drop of a hat, and a lot of them wouldn't even wait for the damn hat.

4. Never miss an opportunity to tell her she's beautiful.

5. Don't refuse to kiss her in front of your friends. If they laugh at you, it's just because they're jealous.

6. If she slaps you hard, you deserved it.

7. Don't be afraid to touch her if you want to. If she's going out with you in the first place, it's because she likes being in your arms.

8. If you don't sleep with her, DON'T tell your friends that you did.

8.5 If you DO sleep with her, DON'T tell your friends that you did.

 9. You can be dirty minded in private, really...most of them are not offended by it...

10. Not all of them eat like birds, a lot of them can eat like whales. 

11. Most of them don't mind paying half of everything, but they do discuss these things with their friends. Realize that if you make your girlfriend pay half all the time, everyone will know about it and your friends will know you're a pussy..

11.5 Do you honestly need all your money that much? Be a man, pay all the time!

12. Every girl should eventually get three things from her boyfriend- a stuffed animal, one of his sweatshirts, and a really pretty ring. Even if it's not a serious relationship.

13. Make sure she gets home safely as often as you can. If you're dropping her off, walk her to the door. If you aren't dropping her off, call to be sure she's home safely.

14. If a guy is bothering her, it is your right to beat the shit out of him.

15. If you're talking to a female friend of yours, pull your girlfriend closer.

16. Never, EVER slap her, even if it's just in a joking way. Even if she swats you first, and says, "Oh, you're so dumb" or something, never make any gestures back. (except tickling)

 17. Go to a chick flick once in a while. She doesn't care whether you enjoy it or not, it just matters that you went.

18. You're dead meat if you can't get along with their pets, parents, and best friends. Be prince charming to their friends, Mr. Polite to their parents, and make sure to be nice to their animals.

19. Don't flirt with their moms...that's just freaky. 

 20. Don't be freaked out by PMS. It's not gross, and it really does make them feel like shit, so be understanding.

21. If you don't like the way they drive, you do it. 

 22. If you're officially dating, and you're introducing her to your friends, you'd better damn well introduce her as your girlfriend.

23. Don't stress where you go for every date. They really only want to be with you.

24. If they complain that something hurts, rub it for them without being asked.

25. Girls are fragile. Even if you're play fighting/wrestling, be very gentle. 

26. Memorize their god damn birthdays. You forget her birthday and you're basically screwed for life. 

27. Don't marinade the cologne, but smell good.

28. Don't give her something stupid for her birthday or Christmas or Valentine's day. It doesn't have to be expensive, but it has to be meaningful. Jewelry is always nice. ( not applicable for all)

29. If you think the relationship isn't going to last, don't wait to find out. It will only hurt her more if you draw it out.

30. After you've been dating for a while, realize that they really have started to trust you. When you have a girlfriend who truly trusts you, you have a lot more responsibility, privilege and control than you would think. Be careful with it, most guys would kill for that kind of power, and it can be lost in a nanosecond.

Ok, I'm bored and w/nothing to do until bed. I'd go play DDR but my sis stole the tv to watch some stupid movie and her cell is load as HELL! Her ring tone sounds really bad...ok got a few jokes I stole from an email from a friend...

Q&A:

1. Q: How do men sort out their laundry?

    A: Filthy adn filthy but wearable.

2. Q: What did Cinderella say when she got to the ball?

    A: Gagged.

Ok that's all for now, gotta go! People be callin'! XoXo <3 Gloria

mk, a little bored b/c I'm on here and looking at some new pics some ppl put up..lolz, I'll put some new pics up when i get to it and have time. Even though I do now, I'm currently writting a book. Well, I need a break adn I'm having a hard time writting it b/c I have writters block...well.....idreally know what to say, I have a blog on mindsay..........I guess I'm losing out on what to say.....that's kinda sad...*sighs* well, I could talk about wanting to learn how to play the guitar, but that's already been taken care of...I guess....well, I thought real hard and long about the kind of tattoo I want. Well, I want an angel kneeling in front of something, hands together, eyes closed. But I don't know what she should be kneeling in front of...maybe a grave? Well, the tattoo is in memory of my grandfather. Some of you may know, that he passed away a few years ago and I was VERY close to him. It was like my real dad dieing again. (ok can't spell worth crap)...well, i was very sad and I think I cried the entire time I was at his house. Well, i was thinking of going to florida and getting the guys from the show 'Miami Ink' to do it.....but that nmight be even more money then needed. The lady my grandpa was married to lives in florida somewhere and I was thinking of staying with her and her boyfriend...don't know his name. Well, I guess I could talk it over in my head. I have this sub-concious thingy and it helps me make big diecisions like this. It's always there when I think about having sex I guess. It kinda keeps me sane. If I didn't have it, I'd prolly be in an insane isylum. Places like that arn't fun. neway, still gonna look around for the right people to do it. I went to this place a few minutes from my house and they were actually closing and moving to florida. the guy tried getting me to do something I didn't want. A girl with her head on her hands, eyes closed, lying on clouds with sun rays shinning down on her.....not what I want!!! I have it drawen in my head and that's how it's going to be....I already have were I want it to go. Left side, shoulder blade...dont' know if that's a good place, seeing as it's on a bone, but hey! It seems like a good place to me...neway, I shoudl prolly go...gotta go do something and try to wrote more of my book....BYE! XoXo Gloria

Been thinking about a new theme, but I don't know yet. I'm not sure what it would be, more then likely, i'd be blue or a mixture of light colors...been thinking more of sping cleaning, so I'm not sure yet what I'm gonna do....just thinking alot about my life and how crazy it's been the past few months, namely the past 6....well, that's all for now I guess.....any suggestions about a new theme? Michelle, i might need a lil help w/a header!!! lolz, J/K! I'll just find a pic online and use that til I get sick of it! Ok, gotta go b/c I'm tired...I hate mondays...especially when almost everyone I know has spring break this week! Good job Cooper on going as far as you did! Congrats!!! It's ok that you didn't win the game. It's not like anyone's gonna kill you for it...neway, biez! <3 Gloria

ok, say 'Take The Lead' last night for $5 at my local theatre. It was awsomness! I wanna learn to dance like that! lol,  I"ve taken a dance class, but it was boring and nothing like that! lol, ok, bored out of my mind! I don't have a fun life. I have nothing it seems. I have people I call my friends, but they never call to say nething to me...makes me sad and want to cry sometimes I guess. other then being bored and waiting for someone to call me.....my life is going no-where. well, enough of being depressed.

I'm hoping Target has their guitars on sale so I don't pay $100 for an aucustic(sry I can't spell). It's cold in my room like always and I don't really have nething else to say. Tried to sell somethings at a pawn shop, but the owner wasn't there, and it smelt BAD! musty in fact! ew! ugh! I had top work this morning at 6am to 11:30am not bad though, I had to measure doors..borring. My eye-candy quit Dura! this guy that was really hot and cute quit Dura! I call him my eye-candy b/c he was qute! grrrrr...well there's someone taking his place for now. Another sorta eye-candy but not really. He's nice and I get along with him well.

Small town people are stuck up! I can't stand them! Theirs these girls at my work that contrdict everything I say! OMFG! I sooo wanted to punch them in the face! They said, "Girls shouldn't be playing the guitar! We're supposed to stand and sing and look hot!" I wanted to smack them both! grrrrrr  I soo don't like them right now. They made me depressed! so now I feel depressed and it's all their fault! neway, I'm gonna go! see you 'round.................maybe.

ok, didn't get to see the guy b/c he was really sick. THANKS ALOT MATT! it's all matt's fault! he had to throw a fuckin' cat bed in his face! grrrrr......neway, took the ATV for a ride today and yesterday even though the guy didn't come out. it's cloudy and i don't like it. i'm waiting for it to rain now since it's supposed to. I' hoping it doesn't rain tomorrow.

anyway, listening to Rent sound track it's awsomeness! lolz, there's only a few songs i really like. i guess yeah...that's all for now...gonna go and play a lil on the guitar. 'We could light the candle. Would you light the candle? What'd you do with my candle?' lolz, like that line...neway, gonna go! lotsa luv!

ok, so i went along with my parents to my sis house for easter yesterday. I was gonna post then, but I was too damn tired. I had to work sat til 10:30 which wasn't too bad. At least it wasn't til noon like i thought. Well, got a lil bored at home, went on a walk or two around in a circle. My nieborhood isn't all that big, so that's all i could do. grrr...well, i went to see ice age 2...it's cute just for the lil kiddies. Went with my mum and niece lili...other then that, and yesterday bein' a little bored, nothing new to report. I did get to hide the eggs yesterday which was bunches of fun! Seriously! I wanna do it again next year! The kids didn't find all of them, so i told them there were stuill 2 left. Which I was surprised they found one egg I hid. It was on a ledge which I was sure none of 'em woul get too. Well one of them did so that was cool. Beth go the most money. $6! wow, I sometimes wish I could go and find eggs now. lolz, wish i was a kid again. lolz, i havn't done that since i was like8! well, gotta go! lotsa luv! Gloria

Ok, I got this email from a co-worker, because she got this thing from another person and it's pretty funny!

New Virus

There is a dangerous virus being passed electronically, orally and by hand. This virus is called Worm-Overload-Recreational-Killer (or as it;s commonly known - WORK). If you recieve WORK of any kind from any colleages, your boss or anyone else ivia ANY means, DO NOT TOUCH IT. This virus will wipe out your private/social life completely. If you should come into contact with WORK, follow these instructions:

1. Put on your jacket.

2. Take 2 friends to the nearest bar.

3. Purchase the antidote known as Work-Isolator-Neutralizer-Extractor (or as it's commonly called - WINE)

4. Ingest the antidote orally in 6-8 oz doses repeatedly until WORK has been completely eliminated from your system.

PLEASE forward this warning to 5 friends. If you do not have 5 friends, you have already been infected and WORK is controlling your life! This virus is DEADLY! Run (don't walk) To the closest liquor store or restaurant (if you are not near a bar) and administer the antidote immesiately!

UPDATE:  After extensive testing, it has been concluded that Best-Equivalent-Extractor-Remedy (or BEER) may be sustituted for WINE.

Please note that you may require a more generous dosage in order to recieve equal benefit of WINE. Looking out for your health and you.

anybody under the age of 13 should not read this!

Just because you were born in '93 doesn't mean you're a 90's kid.

It's not like you could remember the original Simpsons. I am sorry but three conscious years of the nineties just wont cut it.



You're a 90's kid if:

You've ever ended a sentence with the word "SIKE!"

You can sing the rap to "The Fresh Prince Of Bel Air"

You remember when Kurt Cobain, Tu Pac, River Phoenix, and Selena died.

You know that "WOAH" comes from Joey from "Blossom" and that "How Rude!" comes from Stephanie from "Full House"

You remember when it was actually worth getting up early
on a Saturday to watch cartoons.


You got super excited when it was Oregon Trail day in computer class at school.

You remember reading "Goosebumps"

You know the profound meaning of "Wax on, wax off"

You have pondered why Smurfette was the only female smurf.

You took plastic cartoon lunch boxes to school.

you danced to "wannabe" by the Spice Girls, Females: had a new motto, Males: got a whole lot gay-er. (so tell me what you want, what you really really want.)


You remember the craze then the banning of slap bracelets and slam books.

You still get the urge to say "NOT" after (almost) every sentence...Not...

Where in the world is Carmen San Diego? was both a game and a TV game show.

Captain Planet.


You knew that Kimberly, the pink ranger, and Tommy, the red* Ranger were meant to be together.

To the last sentence you said.....hey...Tommy was the green* ranger!!!!

*later to be white

*Jason was the red ranger!*
When playing power rangers with friends you fought over who got to be who............and still all ended up being tommy.

You remember when super nintendo's became popular.

You remember watching home alone 1, 2 , and 3........and tried to pull the pranks on "intruders"

"I've fallen and I can't get up"

You remember going to the skating rink before there were inline skates

Two words... Trapper Keeper.

You ever got injured on a Slip 'n' Slide

You wore socks over leggings scrunched down

"Miss Mary Mack, Mack, Mack, all dressed in black, black, black, with silver buttons, buttons, buttons, all down her back, back, back" SHE ASKED HER MOTHER MOTHER MOTHER FOR FIFTY CENTS CENTS CENTS TO SEE THE ELEPHANTS PHANTS PHANTS JUMP OVER THE FENCE THE FENCE THE FENCE
he jumped so high high high he touched the sky sky sky and he didnt come back back back til the forth of july ly ly he jumped so low ow ow he stubbed his toe toe toe and thats the end end end of the elephants show show show

You remember boom boxes vs. cd players

You remember New Kids on The Block when they were cool

You knew all the characters names and their life stories on "Saved By The Bell"

You played and or collected "Pogs"

You had at least one Tamagotchi, GigaPet or Nano and brought it everywhere

You watched the original Care Bears, My Little Pony, and Ninja Turtles

NANCY DREW AND THE HARDY BOYS WERE THE BEST MYSTERY BOOKS

Yikes pencils and erasers were the stuff!

All your school supplies were "Lisa Frank" brand.(pencils.notebooks.binders.etc.)

You remember when the new Beanie Babies were always sold out.

You used to wear those stick on earings, not only on your ears, but at the corners of your eyes.

You remember a time before the WB.

You've gotten creeped out by "Are You Afraid of the Dark?"


You know the Macarena by heart.

"Talk to the hand" ... enough said

You thought Brain woud finally take over the world

You always said, "Then why don't you marry it!"

You remember when everyone went slinky crazy.

You remember when razor scooters were cool.

when we were younger:

Before the MySpace frenzy.

Before the Internet & text messaging.

Before Sidekicks & iPods.

Before MIKE JONES

Before PlayStation2 or X-BOX.

Back when you put off the 5 hours of homework you had every night.

WHEN LIGHT UP SNEAKERS WERE KOOL

When you rented VHS tapes, not DVDs.

When gas was $0.95 a gallon & Caller ID was a new thing.

When we recorded stuff on VCRs & paid $3.50 for a movie.

When we called the radio station to request songs to hear off our walkmans.

When 2Pac and Biggie where alive.

When the Chicago Bulls were the best team ever.

Way back.

Tag.

Get Over Here!!!! means something to you.

Hide-n-Go Seek at dusk.

Red Light, Green Light.

Heads Up 7 Up.

Playing Kickball & Dodgeball until your porch light came on.

Hopskotch.

Slip-n-Slides.... now there are just ghetto ones

Tree Houses.

Hula Hoops.

Reading R.L. Stine's Goose Bumps.

HELLO....HOT WHEELS!!!!!

"POWER OF LOVE" BY CELINE DION..ONLY COUPLES COULD SKATE TO THIS.

The annoying Nano Pets & Furbies.

Running through the sprinklers.

That "Little Mermaid"

Crying when Mufasa died in the Lion King.

Happy Meals where you chose a Barbie or a Hot Wheels car.

Getting the privilege to sit in the front seat of the car.

Drinking Sqeeze It "Squeeze The Fun Out Of It"

CAPRI SUN

Watching Saturday Morning Cartoons in your PJ's still wrapped up in your TMNT, Power Rangers, Barbie, Fairy Princess comforter.

Hey Arnold, Doug, Rugrats.

The original Power Rangers ( not all the gay new dino ones and crap... they suck so much... i think theres like 5 new versions)

Or what about:

The Secret Life of Alex Mac.

Ren & Stimpy.

Double Dare.

Rocco's Modern Life.

AAAHH!! REAL MONSTERS.

Wild & Crazy Kids.

Clarissa Explains it All.

CAMP NOWHERE

salute your shorts(CAMP ANAWANA)

Are You Afraid of the Dark?

The original cast members of all that.

Kenan & Kel. ( LOVED it!)

"CITY GUYS"...ROLL W/ THE CITY GUYS

doug.

magic school bus.

Nick Arcade.

flash forward.

pete and pete.

legends of the hidden temple.

hey dude.

dinosaurs.

pinky and the brain.

Wishbone.

Sailor Moon.

Muppet Babies

Gumbie

blossom.

hangin with mr.cooper.

wishbone.

bill-nye the science guy.

MR RODGERS!!!!

Who could forget Snick? & Nick @ Nite with Bewitched, I Dream of Jenie, The Facts of Life & I Love Lucy.

Where everyone wanted to be in love after watching The Wonder Years.

or nick jr. with face <3 ( omg the new one is gay.. its like clay or sumthing. EW!)

gulah gulah island

little bear

under the unbrella tree

PEE-WEE!!!

The Big Comfy Couch

Kool-Aid was the drink of choice.

Wearing your new shoes on the first day of school.

Eurika's Castle!!!

Class field trips.

POGS

When Christmas was the most exciting time of year.

When $5 seemed like a million, & another dollar a miracle.

When you begged to go to McDonalds for dinner everyday.

When Toys R Us overuled the mall.


Go back to the time when:

Parents left the room to argue

When dress codes weren't an issue in grades 1-5

People said sorry when they cussed around you

Decisions were made by going 'eeny-meeny-miney-moe'.

Mistakes were corrected by simply exclaiming 'do over!'

'Race issue' meant arguing about who ran the fastest.

Money issues were handled by whoever was banker in 'Monopoly'.

act like you didn't watch afro-king BOB ROSS paint trees on T.V.

It wasn't odd to have two or three 'best' friends.

Being old referred to anyone over 20.

A chance to skate as a couple at the local roller rink was like winning the lottery.

Scrapes & bruises were kissed & made better.

It was a big deal to finally be tall enought to ride the 'big people' rides at the fair.

When playing Nintendo was the hardest thing ever.

When Ninja Turtles ruled the world.

DID I DO THAAAAAAAAAT???

smud and yak back. skip it and pop it.




Before we realized all this would eventually disappear

who would have thought you'd miss the 90's so much!!!!!


Your a 90's kid when you read this and smiled and laughed at least 5 of these.


if you are a 90's kid, repost

I hope I'm not the only one that misses these times! They seem to not exist anymore. I cried and I'm sure anyone that remembers these things WILL!!

Ok, I'm on a ranting rampage! I just want to let those of you ppl know...those of you that know me OUTSIDE OF THIS BLOG! That I do not plan to come and visit anyone after Michelle's BBQ {whenever that is} bc no one has had the time to come and drive and use THEIR gas and THEIR money to visit me. Michelle this is NOTHING, asolutely NOTHING against you! I promise and you know I can keep it, this is nothign against you!

Ok, back to you other people. If anyone wants to see my in the city again, someone better take a trip to see me at MY house for once bc I'm driving to the city to see you people and no one is coming to see me. It's unfair to make me drive all the time to see you when there are people that HAVE cars and HAVE money and CAN afford to drive, can at least take time out of THEIR own scheduals and visit me for a change. I know that you think I'm being selfish, yes, I know I am. It's unfair to have me drive an hour to see everyone when a certain GUY can't even take a fri afternoon drive, when he HAS THE DAMN DIRECTIONS TO MY HOUSE! I know, I know, I need to back off a bit, but i'm not going to feel any better about this.

Please, everyone that knows me OUTSIDE OF THIS COMPUTER, knows what I mean and I PLAN to stick to this.

                         Good day, Gloria

Well, it's been a week since I've written anything, so I guess I'll write something...well, life's kinda up in the air for me right now. I was sooo excited about starting night shift tomorrow, but the chick didn't come in for the orientation thing, so, i have to wait another week...i guess I didn't tell anyone? I'm going to night shift bc I'll be making 10.75 to 11.00 an hour and it's the same amount of hours, so i guess no complaints? So, yeah I also feel stupid for how I was acting about my guy situation...he's been working alot..Alot meaning 8am to 10pm everyday...at least that's the excuse he gave me sat night when I called him while he was sleeping and I'm STILL sorry for that!

then my transmission went out and it's gonna be alot and I'm not sure I have enough money right now...grrrrrr....life is not fair and is not all that great right now I guess......*sigh* I want to crawl into my bed and stay there and hide from the world forever...wish I could get paid for it too.....that would be soo awsome!!! ok, gonna go now....life is going to be up in the air for me for a while I guess....see yeah!

Life seemed so much easier when I wasn't noticed. I thought it'd be nice to have a guy like me, but instead he lied. He lied about how he felt. What he did. What he's done. One little white lie changes everything about him and now i don't know if i should trust him. Guys. Guys can be dumb and they say their sorry, but no. Not all guys are the same.

Life seemed so much easier when i had only a few guy friends and I wasn't the 'girlfriend' type. I never had a boyfriend until him. He kissed her, she told me. I broke it off. It seemed i would never find Mr. Right. I thought I had him, but he slipped through my fingers like butter. I tried to save it, but no.

Life seemed so much easier when I was invisible and everyone knew my name. they thought I was dumb. I'm just mentally disabled. Everyone is different and 'special' in their own way..i guess I was really 'special'.

Life seemed so much easier back when i was younger and didn't have a care in the world for this guy. Or even know who that guy was. Or that he had a girlfriend he really cared about. He never told me the truth. He never has.

Life seemed so much easier before you came along. I heard your name thousands of times in the 4 years we went to the same high school and now I can see why she left you. You don't have a care in the world for me, really. It was just a little white lie.

Life was so much easier before my heart was shattered by him. Before I was noticed and he 'like-like' me. I sometimes cry myself to sleep. You shattered my dreams and now i can smile at the stuppid things.

Life was so much easier before you came along and kissed me. Before you touched me. Before I let your hands roam my body. You never really liked me. It was just a little white lie you pass from girl to girl. Telling them you 'like them a little'.

Life seemed so much easier before you bullshitted your way into my life and made everything go taller then the Empire State Building. You make my life harder. I want my life back to being easy. Back to when i didn't know your face. I didn't know your hazel eyes. The most hazel eyes I could ever get lost in. Your voice was so sweet to hear and now everything that you grew to be to me is shattered because of one little white lie.

Life seemed so much easier before the little white lies we all told to get what we wanted. Before Middle school. Before high school text books were written in. Before you showed your face in my mind. "Grow up! your not a child!" They all used to say, but now, we smmile at how we remember watching Mickey Mouse and Minnie Mouse on Disney. cartoons were just so innocent before you came along. Now since my heart is shattered, I can see that my life will never be easy again.

ok, i guess my poem really helped me yesterday find who i could be turning into. I'm not sure if anyone really pays attention to how they can hurt someone. I guess all guys can be assholes and they never want to grow up, but you can't help it I guess. I was dissapointeed to find out at the beginning of the week that andrew bullshit his way to making me think he liked me back in a 'more then friends' kinda way. Well, i have a plan and I'm hoping it goes very well. I'm just going to get my own sweet revenge to prove I'm not always what people think of me. Yes, I can be bitchy and crabby, so can the next person. Guys, don't bullshit your way into making a gorl like you hen just shut her out the enxt day. That's probably the lowest you can go. To me, at least it is.

I guess I'm turning out to be just like I was hoping I would be. I can't really find the peace I thought I would, moving back in with my parents after what happened only a few months ago, which feels like years. I feel warn out from working and sometimes wish I could call it all quites and stay in bed all day. BUt I know for a FACT that Dura can't function w/out me, so there for, I'm forced to go into work everyday. I guess the job is going ok, my back hurts and it hasn't hurt for a while. I do hope it goes away. I also feel exauhsted to the point that I don't want to do anything but sleep for days on end, but I guess that won't happen, bc I don't want my life to just slip by.

I want to expeireiance everything and anything I can. I was hurt by what andrew did and it was not what he should have done. I don't see how a person can just say, "hey, I like you. can you call me tomorrow?" I did and he never called me back. I guess it was all bullshit and I don't know who or what to believe that I'm told. I've been lied to and I have lied, I admitt that, but it wasn't to get someone to think I liked them when I didn't like them. Plus, I don't kiss someone I don't like, then say, "he's not my type." That's just lower then low. I don't get what I did or said or even looked like to him.

I guess everytime I think I have someone, it slips threw my fingers bc it's not right, or they don't like me, or he thinks i'm too much to handle. I'm not too much, I want to be loved just like the next person. I guess I feel lost living out here, an hour away and visiting just makes everything harder. My life seems to be slipping away, with nothing but my nieces and nephews to see and smile and laugh. I truely love them to death and would die for them, I love them soo much. I may not be related to them but blood, but I grew to love them. Each differently. And the 8th one being born just adds to the love that I can give, but I don't feel it being returned like I thought.

Why give and not recieve? MIke is the only one tha made me loved outside my family, but I know deep down that I have friends that love me, they just show it differently. I just want to find a guy that will care about me and that will show and tell me what I never hear. I heard it once, yes, but will I hear it from someone else? I'm not sure anymore. I try to find my faults and I have found a few, but I guess I have some that I can't figure out. I guess I care too much too soon. But that's a quality in people you don't find very offtin. I can see 2 friends, their a couple obviously, and they've lasted the longest out of three couples that started dating all on the same day. Congrates to this couple! You two truly look wonderful together! I'm very proud of you two! Really, I am!

I guess I'll find this guy later on in life, rather then now. I'm going to try and be more outgoing, but I'm just too shy of a person and i know I'm pretty, but am I too pretty, it makes a guy too nervous to even say hi? I guess if you can get past my brick wall, you can see I'm an amazingf person. i just wish more people could get to know the me inside, instead of on the outside. well, i guess that;s all for now. I know this is long, but advise would be great!

0nly two rules...and you MUST follow them!
You can only say YES or NO!

You are NOT ALLOWED to explain ANYTHING unless someone messages you and asks!



Taken a picture naked? no

Made out with a member of the same sex? no

Told a lie? yes

Had a one night stand? no

Been in a fist fight? yes

Had feelings for someone who didn't have them back? yes

Been arrested? no

Fooled around in your parents' house? no

Ditched school to have sex? no

Slept in a bed with a member of the same sex? yes

Seen someone die? no

Slept in until 3? no

Laid on your back and watched cloud shapes go by? yes

Played dress up? yes

Fallen asleep at work/school? yes

Touched a snake? yes

Ran a red light? yes

Had detention? yes

Been in a car accident? yes

Pole danced? no

I want a life. I had it when I walked through that door, but now it's gone. I've been told I have a nice ass. Is that all they look for? You don't know me. No one does. They don't want to waste their valuble time breathing the air around me. It could be poisoness. It's sweet and refreshing in my own world but no one cares to see just how candy sweet I can be until it's too late. U have the sweewar life, but you don't know. You couldn't care. You wouldn't dare breath a word. They'd duisown you in the blink of an eye if you even glanced at me.

I'm trying to brearh when your near, but my heart wants to rush into this newly found freedom. I've seen how you ;ppl at me. You want to say, 'Forget you!' But their more important then what my hazel green eyes see how they treat you. I catch you looking me up and down. Do you like what you see? Or are you disgusted by what I say? You have a wonderful looking girfriend but you don't care about her. She wraps her arms around you, but you don't want her.

I sit alone on the other side of that room. You watch as I am lost in my own thoughts. We watch as they sing and dance. Lost in the world of music and sea of people. The song is over. i stand and greet them. You walk towards me not a care in the world. Two spot lights go on. We're in teh middle, we meet by accident. Everyones silant.

The song starts and everyone stares...waiting. You take my hand. We dance and I get lost in your touch. Before I know it, we;re kissing. It's impossible to pull away. The sweetest thing in life was here in front of me the entire time.

a real guy looks past what you look like on the outside. they don't look at your ass, you rack or anything else. they look at whats inside. they see how you smile. what color your eyes are. they can usually see what your feeling in your eyes.

a fake guy will look at whats on the outside and not care what your like on the inside. he'll use you, he won't care and he'll never speak to you again. he'll say crap to get into your life just for sex.

fake guys can stay away from me. I want a real guy. A guy to tell me that I'm pretty and mean it when I don't expect it. I want to see that you mean it. I don't understand why guys look at my ass and tell me it is when I've heard it enough times to make me want to leave and never look back.

that's what it feels like to some girls. you can tell them they have something nice. like their ass or rack. but that's not what all of us want to hear. I try and think back to when i was last told I was pretty. I ask someone to tell me what they first notices and he was sweet and honest. I can't help but try adn hold the tears back.

I feel used sometimes. Like no one cares about the me inside. like i know i'm a great person, but i don't hear it enough. most girls that are gorgous hear it all the time and I'm sure they get sick of hearing it. I know I am. I don't understand what a guys problem is with me. I didn't do or say anything to hurt his feelings....yet he thinks saying he likes me and doesn't mean it makes him 'cool'? it makes no sense to me that a guy doesn't approch me. can a girl be too pretty to approch?

I know I'm pretty, but if you like my face, they just walk up to me and say, 'hi' or ask, 'would you like to dance?' I may not be outgoing, but I'm still a great person to get to know. People should stop looking at the outside for a change and look past all the make up.

I dont' weaar make up bc I don't always want to. Most people think they need it to impress someone, i think not. If someone doesn't like what you look like w/out make up, he is fake.

A real guy will care and see past everything on the outside and see what a wonderful person i know I truly am. I asked two guys I know what they first noticed about me and they both said my smile. I wore braces for 4 years and that's what I think helped with that. I look at old pictures of myself and see that i'm not wearing make up. I sometimes see happy. I see flab, and yes I think I have it. Who doesn't? A girl thats 5'3 and a size 5 and under.

A fake guy goes for the girls with an ass or a big rack or skinny as a tooth pick and eats like a bird. You shouldn't be afraid to approch a girl with a little flab. I don't look it, but I'm 125. I go between 125 and 130. For a 20 year old, I don't know if that's the average waight. I don't even eat dinner anymore...right now I am...because I'm not hungry. I can't go out every week end and visit with my friends bc they live miles away. we're not even in the same county, i'm so far away...hennepin county...wright county...a big difference i say.

ok, i figured I'd come update...yeah i've been in a bad mood all week and all thanks to a guy that i now despise. I'm hoping he understands that he really hurt my feelings when he lied to me. I did like him and he didn't ahve to lead me on like that. BUt I'm pretty sure I'll be over it...hopefully.

Well, I start night shift officially tomorrow! I'm excited! i also dyed my hair. I'm tryin to get a new pic up. It is darker and I like it. I really didn't like the color of my hair b4. I do plan to think my life thru when I get a chance and I think tomorrow I will. It was cold today and I'm a tad bit cold right now. and for the first time ever, I'm not curled up in a blanket! woo hoo! lol, i've been needing a vacation and I have an idea of where I want to go. I think Florida is a good place to go. Just me, a friend I know and the ocean. I've never seen the ocean and I think it will be interesting.

Neway...i guess I'll be going...nothing else is interesting now...except that my car isn't fixed yet. the guy that put the transmission in my car said that it didn't start. so now, i have to prolly wait another week b4 I get it back. I'm hoping to talk to A.L. about what hes done. I can't go thru this 'i'm going to ignore you forever' thing nemore. so, next weekend looks asif it'll be the best time...neway......ttyl!

1.Who are you?
2. Are we friends?
3. When and how did we meet?
4. How have I affected you?
5. What do you think of me?
6. What's the fondest memory you have of me?
7. How long do you think we will be friends?
8. Do you love me?
9. Do you have a crush on me?
10. Would you kiss me?
11. Would you hug me?
12. Physically, what stands out?
13. Emotionally, what stands out?
14. Do you wish I was cooler?
15. On a scale of 1-10, how hot am I?
16. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
17. Am I loveable?
18. How long have you known me?
19. Describe me in one word.
20. What was your first impression?
21. Do you still think that way about me now?
22. What do you think my weakness is?
23. Do you think I'll get married?
24. What makes me happy?
25. What makes me sad?
26. What reminds you of me?
27. If you could give me anything what would it be?
28. How well do you know me?
29. When's the last time you saw me?
30. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
31. Do you think I could kill someone?
32. Have we ever had sex?
33. Do you miss me?
34. Do you think I miss you?
33. Are you going to put this on your MINDSAY and see what I say about you?

You are lost, you are lost

Ok, I'm listening to the lost prophets! I had to wrote that! lol...yeah night shift...wow....lolz, I have noticed that starting Dura made me a little more confident then i have been in the past. I started monday...3:30pm to 2am...I sat outside with 3 other co-workers and shot the shit. lolz, that was AWSOME! I havn't done that in soooo long! I got a little hungry, but I didn't want nor could go to perkins. I wasn't driving my own car, so I couldn't really go. So, I brought my cd's for a guy to look at and my cd collection is one of the most random cd collections you'll prolly come across. I have EVERYTHING! well...I think almost everything.

Well, he made a list and bringing the cd-r's. I don't ahve to use my own! YAY! lolz, so, I sat around with him and someone else, until 4am! well, 4 am for the other person and 4:15 for the guy bc he was waiting for his car to warm up and my car has an ass warmer. So we sat in mine just long enough to warm him up. Dura's across the street from a lake and if anyone knows what it's like at 4am, sitting in an open parking lot, and a breeze comin off the lake is cold? yeah, that's what it was like for the whole 2 hours just sitting there. lolz, but it was fun! i laughed and I guess being around people that you don't really know that well, talking about just the most random shit ever, is fun. Especially at 2 am in the morning! lolz, yeah i was kinda wired with sugar. That's all I prolly run off of while working nights. Except monday wasn't. That was energy. Not sugar. Well, we wanted perkins, but it was kinda a drive, but not. It was the only place..other then other perkin stores that was open that time of night. Well, we decided that next monday, we go to perkins after work..leaving when we get off. hee hee hee...I get my pie! lolz, neway, it was nice for once. I get along with them pretty well. When ever jessie ain't pokin' me and ticklin me! dammit!

jessie likes to poke me...so we have an on-going poking war.

gonna go now...eat something......oooooooooo pop tarts....*smirks* TTYL!

ok, so, tonight was very interesting and fun! i know its late to be on here, but i drank mountain dew at 11pm and this is what happens whn i have it that late at night. I'm tryin not to be load w/my typing, but I don't think that's gonna work out well.

neway, i was asked to play a little practical joke on a guy at work, bc it was another guys last day :( sad! I don't even know this other guy and he's nice. out of everyone on night shift, there isn't that many girls. I'm one of the few. WELL, i partisipated and wrote a little not just to tease the guy, but i kinda feel bad for doin' it now. I don't think I've ever seen this guy....ever. neway, i did that and at 12am, my last break of the night, i was talkin and telling the guy who's last day is today, about my situation w/a.l. so he sent him a text message which I'm still waiting for him to call me...he prolly won't. neway, i guess thatwas kinda interesting...and funny all at the same time. one guy i talk to alot and makes the night go by faster won't be here tomorrow...he has things to do in the city, so he's gonna b gone. :( I'm gonna be all alone for my luch/dinner/break time tomorrow! *sniffles* lolz, ok not really.

so also, I talked to jessie(the guy I talk to everyday) and this is how this lil conversation went. find the part that makes you think he likes me a little:

Jessie: So, he came and asked me about it first (practical joke) and I told him how you can be a tease, he asked, (jeremy the guy that today was his last day) 'Are you gonna hook-up with that new girl?' I said, 'If it happens, it happens, you never know. You know.

Me: *laughing my ass off bc it's funny to hear this from him. He knows I can be a tease and so does ne1 else that knows me from Dura* *nodding while smiling* I guess I can have a little bit of fun while I'm here. I'll think of something and help.

So, can you find it? lolz, it makes me think that maybe he likes me a little bc i like him. i also just found out he has a gf, so he's off limits. and joking 'round in a sex sense without even MENTIONING sex, is fun! that's how a factory is, people have on-going jokes about everything and ANYTHING you could think of. I think if jessie quit(he's been talkin about it) i'd prolly want to quit myself bc he makes the night go by faster and i have made him smile and he can make me smile...so idkwtf it's supposed to mean. he's a nice guy and fun to be around and he was the first one I told my whole "I'm working here bc I moved here bc of this reason." He understands where I'm comin from for everything and he knows about my escipy with a.l. (i can't spell)...so yeah! we get along really good! too bad he has a gf though...he's the only guy there that I would consider dating OUTSIDE Dura. (i'll try to get a pic!) yeah...neway, I'm gonna go...it's been a long night....TTYL!

G- Love is something you deeply believe in.

L- You have a nice ass (heard that plenty of times)

O- You love foreplay

R - People think you are so sexy. 

I - You Have a big warm heart.

A - Your DAMN good in bed 

M - You never let ppl tell you what to do

A - Your DAMN good in bed (ooh double good ;) )

Y- One of the hardest ganstas alive

M - You never let ppl tell you what to do

I - You Have a big warm heart.

R - People think you are so sexy.

E- You have a nice ass :)

A-Your DAMN good in bed

B- You are always fun when it comes to meeting new people.

C- Love is something you deeply believe in.

D- You have trouble trusting people.

E- You have a nice ass

F- People totally adore you

G- Love is something you deeply believe in.

H- You have very good personality and looks.- You are not judgemental.

I- yoU Have a big warm heart.

J- Everyone loves you.

K- You like to try new things

L- You have a nice ass

M- You never let ppl tell you what to do

N-You are one of the best in bed

O- You love foreplay

P- You are popular with all types of people.

Q- You are a hypocrite.

R- People think you are so sexy.

S-You have a big heart

T -You are one of the best in bed.

U- You are really layed back.

V- You are not judgemental.

W- You are very broad minded.

X- Success comes easily to you

Y- One of the hardest ganstas alive

Z- You know what they want

ok, just came by to see how everyone is...i guess I'm just waiting for tonight to happen...goin' out w/some friends...i think we're goin to a club or somethin...not really sure where...all i know is i want to have as much fun as possible! I havn't danced with people in soooo long! over a year! except for that one time with michelle at the Field house...but I'm not sure if that counts...that chick still creeps me out!

neway...not really nething else to report i guess except I'm bored and want it to be that time already!

seriously! I'm soo confused about this guy at my work. He's now gone from poking to tickling...whats that supposed to mean? he knows I like him...slightly...I blush when ever it comes up and I NEVER blush..not even when my parents bring up sex. for them to even mention it is just.....not something I talk to them about. my mom gives me too much shit about it..i have to leave the room. I can't handle her giving me shit about it. I am a virgin and yes, I can tease the HELL outa guys. But that's just me! that's how I am! I mean, big deal! I know for a fact that prolly alota guys like the whole, teasing thing. I'm just tryin tofigure out things...which I still ahvn't been able too since my car is being a pos again!

neway...yeah...gonna go now...like it says...boys are confusing!!!

ok, the title says it all....i askas jessie from work about my situation and all that. he said that the only reason why andrew prolly did it, is h likes me and doesn't want to admit it...or he's tryin to not hurt me in anyway...like he doesn't want to use me...I ALREADY FEEL USED! don't know why, but I do! neway, jessie has a tendency to make my day go by faster by flirting with me, givin me shit...all that. well, he was acting like he was on something...idk what it was, but he was! we got off at 11pm and stayed to just bullshit for 2 hours. that's what it started out to be, but then I got a phone call....that was for 1/2 an hour.

then jessie started gettin crazy goofy! Michelle, you know how I can be goofie? HE WAS WORSE! OMFG! I thought I was gonna die of laughter! I soo want to bring a video camera and tape what he does! it's hilarious! I almost fell off his car when i was sitting....not good....that's how hard I was laughing!

Well, neway, he was playin round with his cd's and he came across an OLD SONG! something you never hear nemore! 'I put my hand up on you hip, you dip I dip we dip' OMFG! I almost fell to the ground, I laughed sooooooooo hard!!! he danced like I would dance! he also put his jeans down below his ass, just to add to the funny scene. that was sooooooooo damn funny! me and the other girl standing there, just laughed and I cried I laughed soo hard. He tilted his hat, and did a booty move!!!!! OMFG! If we hadn't been in the Dura parking lot, and he didn't have a girlfriend, I sooooooooo would have danced closer then 20ft!!! he can be just the biggest goof ball ever!

like I said, I don't know what he was smokin, but whatever it was, I WANT SOME! to get that excited for no particular reason is hilarious! omfg, i'm still laughin over it!

neway...i'm confuse about him bc he flirts and he come over to talk to me....i also got a lil turned on today.....guys that don't look too toned...like they have a little extra...when he grabbed a few doors for me when they were too big, I saw his muscles flex...OMFG! lolz, I sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo sometimes wish he didn't have a gf......but that would be bad.....neway...randy, the manager on days...for some reason, thinks we're dating and we're not...................like I've said, if he didn't have a girlfriend, oh i would sooo flirt with him MORE! even though I flirt no matter what the situation....neway...yeah! He's confusing as hell....he already said he won't cheat and I'm glad. He doesn't need to be doing that to his gf. neway, gonna go, i'm tired and tomorrow looks to be a long ass day at the lake....BYE!

Hey, i'm bored on such a pretty day, i'm pathetic. I'm sitting in my room, on my computer........because I am bored and have nothin to do...and no one to talk to bc everyones away at work or school.

Well, lets see, I was in the city with friends both sat night and sun night! I then went back early this morning to get my car back and guess what............NO PROBLEMS!!!!!! YAY! ^.^ I'm soooo happy, you have no idea. neway, sat, i visited with michelle, she made my blog theme! Isn't it pretty?! I love it! Something new compared to the princess one. I am going to keep this theme for a while or until I get bored with it....lets see....how long til I get bored with it? well, I went to the lake place that day for a little while and got to use my moms car this weekend. [I had to clean my room first which took forever!] the water was frigid! I went in once and got back out and got myself a rug burn. [thanks andy, just what I wanted for my birthday, A RUG BURN!]

well, sat, the water was ALOT better! it was sooooo much warmer! like ti warmed up over night! I then hung out with other friends! We went to a club! My first time ever! I had a blast! I saw an old class mate I havn't seen in two years. I wish him the best of luck at getting his teaching degree and for selling his car! neway, danced with him and two random guys. I got them both off me after the 5th song bc they we're both grabbing for my boobs. so i said that I was getting air and took one of my friends with me. neway, all-in-all, I had soo much fun! I havn't danced in sooo long! let alone at a club!

then yesterday, I spent the day at the lake place again with family bc it was memorial day. I had fun and swam. I may be a littl burnt, but i put stuff on, so I think I'm good to go! I saw all my nieces and nephews except gage. He was with his dad this past weekend.

and that brings us to today! I got up at 5am to get a ride with my mom so I could pick up my car. It works! No problems! I got home and changed and went to the lake place again and swam. it was cooler today, but still nice after sitting in the sun for a while. I only went in 3 times bc it wasn't as warm as I hoped. Wow, 4 days in a row! and their wasn't any kind of wind! it was all weekend! OH MY niece Lili caught her first fish yesterday! it was awsomeness! It was a nice sized one too, so we put it in with the other 3 that were caught. I eveb caught one the same size a few minutes later!

I needed the extra day! I feel soo much better! soooooooooo refreshed! well, I gotta go, I have to do laundry! ttyl! {gloria}

I seriously shouldn't think soo much. I was tired last night all the while at work bc I got up at 5am and i got my car back. Well, I was thinking about a friend that's in Iraq and I hope he's doing alright. I know he's a strong person and I also know he's in a pretty bad part, at least that's what I was told. I thought alot about him, don't know why. it just popped into my head. I also thought about what I might do and/or act like if their was a draft, which I know no-one wants to think about.

I don't want there to be a draft and I know, they army will take my alot of my guy family and friends b4 I would have to go. But I don't want to fight in this war bc it's not something I want. I would rather go to jail. I mean, yeah, it would have been great right after h.s, but now? I mean, I'm not athletic, I can run, but I have ashma and most of all, I don't want to die like that! I don't want to be a fallin soilder and have everyone asy things about me when I should have the choice of what I do with my life and where I go and why I did whatever I did.

If I was told there would be a draft, I'd just leave my house and try to see John bc I havn't seen him since last summer and I miss him a little I guess. Well, I'd want to get pregnant b4 I go to jail. But if I can't get pregnant, I'll go to jail, bc I don't want to go to war. If this were to happen, they should give everyone the choice as to if they want to go or not. I DON'T WANT TO GO!

Are you eating right? Are you sleeping without a worry? I know we haven't been the greatest of friends, but your in my heart because your my friend. You always have been.

Are you thinking about the next day? If you're going to see it? If your going to see us again? I know I miss your smile slightly, and how you always have a hug for everyone, no matter who they are, or what you know about them.

I know that if you don't make it, He'll tell me, because she told him. I try not to shed a tear for you, but I sometimes can't stop it. just one slithers  down my pale cheek as I stare out at the glass calm lake. it's not even a lake, it's another sky. another day, another phone call. the one phone call I don't want to get, knowing you won't be coming back home awake.

ok, I was bored, so there's a little poem for you! ttyl! and don't ever forget matt, you are missed and I hope to see you soon! Get back safe and look out for yourself!!! Gloria

lolz, yeah that was randomness...ok I havn't updated in almost a week, so I guess I'll write somethin'. Well, Thurday was interesting..picked a few ppl up and hung out, went to eric's grad ceremony, got my name called in his speech. I'm very proud that he got his GED! He knows that too! Well, we took a few pics, I'm still waiting for those...3 total...neway, went to his grama's for cake and ice cream..that was interesting...went back to his house and played truth or dare...again, intersting. Went home after driving ppl home...the next day I hung out with family an caught 4 fish w/in a half hour off my dock, 3 sunnies and 1 cropie about 6 or 7 inches long! OMFG! I am soo very proud of myself! lolz, neway, went and hung out with ppl's again, kinda. I didn't wanna be eatin' alive, so I hung w/fezz and 4 other ppl in a tent which was awsomeness! I had soo much fun those two days, I wanna do it again! We almost drove to my house, but fezz couln't go, his dad was bein a dusch! lolz, yeah neway!

We left to get blankets bc it we didn't have neto use, so we went to ashley's to get some. well, I didn't get to sleep til 8am...got to sleep til noon, went to a friends grad party. I've known her since birth! SERIOUSLY! Since birth! neway, lolz, yeah that was fun for like 3 hours. I got really tired the way home and kept fallin asleep. got home at 6pm and callapsed on the couch. I didn't know how long I was asleep, but I went to bed sometime round 6:30 or 7 and slept til I got a HUGE craving for apple juice...I get this craving, in the middle of the night, I turn out the lights...ok sorry, random OTOWN song...lolz, the song is about a guy that needs his girl...neway...i got really sun burnt sat and now my back is peeling and it itches like a bitch! neway, I should prolly go and get some sleep even though the 14 hours wasn't enough...lolz, it was kinda enough, I was yawning at 5pm...neway, Be back soon, prolly at the end of the week or so...ttyl and lotsa luv! Gl0rIa

Ok, so I'm a little bored at 2:30am..but that's only bc I just got off work and can't really sleep. Well, I have a rant and a question for all guys and you can't answer if you're not going to be honest! I like honesty! It's everyones friend! Here are a few questions:

1. Why does sex have to be in a relationship?

2. Why do guys look but don't aproch a girl if they like mostly what they see?

3.Why do some people base their relationship off sex?

4. Is sex really all that important?

5. Why is sex such a HUGE thing for guys?

6. Why do you think sex is needed in a relationship to keep it alive?

ok, I'd like only honest persons to answer this! I don't care who you are, I'm just tryin to come to terms with things like this. It's something that's been bothering me more then it should.

I'm trying hard not to let it get to me.

but what can I do?

I see them holding hands, laughing, smiling, without a care in this gigantic galaxy.

one of millions around.

is anything real anymore?

I try to feel something, but when i try to get close to it, it's taken away.

one of trillions of times i've tried and failed at something i want.

I am trying my best at getting through this but I don't see any light at the end of ths endless tunnel.

it's bitter and cold. i want to sink into the slightest sense of warmth I'm feeling.

I may be smiling on the outside, but inside I'm reaching out to anyone. anything that will take hold of me and save me from this endless darkening tunnel.

nothing is as it seems people say..i'm not sure this is true anymore.

i act happy which in ways I am, around those that care for me as I care for them..but is that all there is?

just the family you have left?

I'm trying as hard and with all the streanth I have left to keep hold on this cliff.

the stone is digging into my skin. I can't feel anything anymore.

I look below and see the long drop to the ocean below. I want to let go and let the waves take me away.

crash me against the stone and fall down to the endless  cold, darkness I'm already in.

ok, i have some AMAZING NEWS!!! I got a letter in teh mail yesterday from poetry.com. I submitted a poem called, 'Keep Me Safe, Fly Away' and I've been nominated for Poet of the Year!!!! I am sooooo excited! It's in Las Vegas July 20-23rd. I am going and a friend is going with me. He;s not going to the convention, he just wants to gamble and he's paying his own way. that's the only way anyone is going with me. I'm not going to pay for anyone but myslef. he's paying for his own ticket and 1/2 the room. we're gonna try to get 2 other ppl to go, which reminds me, Michelle, do you want to go? I can get everything written down and tell you sat when i see you!!! I can show you everything I got too. so yeah! I'm VERY excited and i can't wait! Only a little over a month til I leave! It's over the weekend, so I only miss 2 days of work, which I'm gonna have to work my ass off to show my manager I would like those days off. I hope I do, other wise I don't know if I'm gonna get my statue in the mail...i dought that.

anyway, yesterday was my friends birhtday and he's not a teen anymore! Happy Birthday Justin!!! Seriously! Yesterday changed everything for me and I'm sorry if I didn't tell anyone else, I've jsut been going crazy thinking about this whole thing. lolz, ok, I'm gonna go b4 I kill my keyboard from typing. I've been talking non-stop to ppl and I don't want to kill this key board..other wise I have to go buy a new one...which I don't think it's possible to kill a key board. well, ttyl!!! GLORIA

I found this on myspace(michelle, I know you don't like myspace, but heather posted this an i like it.) I think everyone should read this bc i think you can learn something from this story.

The Wooden Bowl I guarantee you will remember the tale of the Wooden Bowl tomorrow, a week from now, a month from now, a year from now. A frail old man went to live with his son, daughter-in-law, and four-year old grandson. The old man's hands trembled, his eyesight was blurred, and his step faltered. The family ate together at the table. But the elderly grandfather's shaky hands and failing sight made eating difficult. Peas rolled off his spoon onto the floor. When he grasped the glass, milk spilled on the tablecloth. The son and daughter-in-law became irritated with the mess. "We must do something about father," said the son. "I've had enough of his spilled milk, noisy eating, and food on the floor." So the husband and wife set a small table in the corner. There, Grandfather ate alone while the rest of the family enjoyed dinner. Since Grandfather had broken a dish or two, his food was served in a wooden bowl! When the family glanced in Grandfather's direction, sometime he had a tear in his eye as he sat alone. Still, the only words the couple had for him were sharp admonitions when he dropped a fork or spilled food. The four-year-old watched it all in silence. One evening before supper, the father noticed his son playing with wood scraps on the floor. He asked the child sweetly, "What are you making?" Just as sweetly, the boy responded, "Oh, I am making a little bowl for you and Mama to eat your food in when I grow up." The four-year-old smiled and went back to work. The words so struck the parents so that they were speechless. Then tears started to stream down their cheeks. Though no word was spoken, both knew what must be done. That evening the husband took Grandfather's hand and gently led him back to the family table. For the remainder of his days he ate every meal with the family. And for some reason, neither husband nor wife seemed to care any longer when a fork was dropped, milk spilled, or the tablecloth soiled.

On a positive note... I've learned that, no matter what happens, how bad it seems today, life does go on, and it will be better tomorrow. I've learned that you can tell a lot about a person by the way he/she handles three things: a rainy day, lost luggage, and tangled Christmas tree lights. I've learned that, regardless of your relationship with your parents, you'll miss them when they're gone from your life. I've learned that making a "living" is not the same thing as making a "life." I've learned that life sometimes gives you a second chance. I've learned that you shouldn't go through life with a catcher's mitt on both hands. You need to be able to throw something back. I've learned that if you pursue happiness, it will elude you. But, if you focus on your family, your friends, the needs of others, your work and doing the very best you can, happiness will find you. I've learned that whenever I decide something with an open heart, I usually make the right decision. I've learned that even when I have pains, I don't have to be one. I've learned that every day, you should reach out and touch someone. People love that human touch -- holding hands, a warm hug, or just a friendly pat on the back. I've learned that I still have a lot to learn. I've learned that you should pass this on to everyone you care about...I just did.

ok can we all say random? lolz, NO! That isn't random! Jessie came into work like, tuesday I think, and let just say, DANM HE CAN CLEAN UP NICE! lolz, he was cute b4, but now...WOW! He just got my attention even more then he did before...like....heart skipping a beat attention. Well, that and I didn't recongnise him at first bc his hair was really curly an bushy b4. he cut it all off...but STILL! I'm attracted to him even more and it sucks. I know I was blushing and all that the entire day...i'm just glad he doesn't know what's running thru my pretty little brain.

lolz, neway, i wrote down a few things while at work, bc I was bored for 1 and they just kept coming! lolz, here you go!

-when you can't have who you want so badly you go insane.

-my inspiration came from every which way.

-I'm jusmping up and down at the chance of a new beginning.

-You know it's gonna hurt like a bitch when you start to bleed.

-I wonder if those stories will ever be made into million dollor movies.

-Remake it all over again.

-I need a notebook to carry all my passion and inspiration so my grandchildren can read all of my insanity.

-my passions turned into your insanities at their finguretips.

-I'm not the type of girl to give it up in the blink of an eye like you did so long ago.

-It's not my fault you rum thru my vains.

-I try not to stair and blush as I can see you clean up nicely.

ok those where little things, now here's a poem I wrote last night.

"You Made Him Invisible"

He was sitting there yesterday & now he's disappeared.

He made himself invisible to you bc you laughed at him.

His dirty blonde hair cut short to blend in w/the crowd.

She won't look him in the eyes bc I can't.

He knows everything. He's everywhere.

So yeah! There you go! I don't know why, but this is kinda a look at what goes thru my head for 10 hours at my job. I hope I olny have to work a little time tonite and not til 2am, but we'll see. I'm gonna go, i have crao to do. TTYL! much <3 Gloria

What do you do when you like more then one person and can't choose? I like 3 guys. 1 I an't have bc he's practically engaged, 1 I like ALOT but saw how it was if we dated, and 1 I broke up with bc he wasn't over his exgf. I saw him this weekend, bc he put the sterio in my car adn as soon as he called to make plans, I felt bad bc I was coming intot he city and he was WILLING to come visit me! Well, i still got to see him yesterday. We spent most of the day putting a sterio in my car. THANK YOU!!! He knows who he is. Well, in treat to him doing this for me, I invited him to go w/me and another guy to a dance club bc their both 18. I was planning on going with the other guy, but since he put the sterio in my car, my feelings seemed to sky rocket and I couldn't help but invite him. We said yes and we went.

In a way, I still really like the 2nd guy, but if I dated him, he would be VERY possesive.(michelle, he'd be more possesive then DYLAN!) So, I don't know about him. I'm thinking about both of them, the first, i'm just not gonna try for bc I know it won't happen. He is confussing me like hell, but that's not what made me decide this. I know he cares ALOT for his gf bc he tells her, 'i love you too' when ever he talks to her. And you can tell he's talking to her, bc he zones out on everything/one else. I asked him a question when he wastalkin to her once, and he didn't even know I asked. Thats how I could tell I don't really have a chance for him.

Well, neway, sat night was soooooooooooo much fun! I got to dance again and they didn't play just rap n shit. They played all KINDS of music! Yeah, it was boring at first, but Jake and I had the same thought, at the same EXACT time! we made eye contact and I asked, 'do you want to dance?' and at the same time, he tilted his head towards the dance floor. I nodded and we went at it! He practically saved me!!! We danced the rest of the night away, with the other guy on the side with a 'headache'. I didn't really care at all, I just wanted to dance! I also needed to pole dance! I had this HUGE GIGANTIC urge to pole dance last night! i somewhat still do, but not at the moment. The club doesn't have any poles, so it doesn't work out. But neway, I had a blast and I'm glad Jake went along!

neway, I should prolly go, i have to get some sleep! Michelle, can you let me know when you want to get together? I know I have sat. open, so let me know. Sat night I'm not sure about yet, I might be going dancing with Jake again. That was sooo much fun! And he makes awsome burgers at 2am! lolz, ttyl much <3 to all, gloria

has anyone seen the boondock saints? I watched it at a friends house over the seekend and they have a prayer and I FOUND IT! HAHAHAHAHAHA! lmao, tee hee. I liked the prayer and I looked for it and FOUND IT! GO ME! and on my birthday too. Happy birthday to me! tee hee, i'm in a weird mood right now so, i'll just put up the prayer adn be gone.

And shepards we shall be,

for thee lord, for thee.

Power hath decended forth,

from thy hand, that our feet may swiftly

carry out thy command.

We shall flow a river forth to thee

and teeming with souls shall it

ever be.

In nomine parte. Et felie,

spiritus scanti.

ok random..neway, just thought i'd come on and rant a little...ppl are so stupid! I can't believe that we elected BUSH! I didn't like him all that much when i found out he keeps asking for more money for Iraq then towards childrens education...now that i found of from Michelle that there could possibly be an ON SOIL attack, I'm scared! I don't want that to happen. if it does, what is gonna happen? We lose alot. we couldn't even help those that were hurt and lost EVERYTHING to hurrican Katrina. Bush would rather pay for war then look at his OWN PEOPLE and see that THIER HURTING! I dont' want to lose what I have bc, yeah, family is important to me, its at the top of my list. its the first thing on MY list! I'm sure it is on up there for everyone else too. Bush can KISS MY ASS if he thinks he's gonna sendme to defend HIS country! this is supposed to be a freedom country...but I was thinking, if we have Freedom of Speech, why are they bleeping out 'fuck' and 'shit'? I never thought about it until now. They don't want us saying those words. Their WORDS!!!!!!!!! REAL WORDS! IN THE DICTIONARY! WHATS WRONG WITH YOU PEOPLE! They can't keep anyone from saying these words.

i've decided to look up the REAL meaning to these words...i got my information from dictionary.com

fuck    ( P )  Pronunciation Key  (f k) Vulgar Slang v. fucked, fuck·ing, fucks v. tr. To have sexual intercourse with. To take advantage of, betray, or cheat; victimize. Used in the imperative as a signal of angry dismissal. v. intr. To engage in sexual intercourse. To act wastefully or foolishly. To interfere; meddle. Often used with with. n. An act of sexual intercourse. A partner in sexual intercourse. A despised person. Used as an intensive: What the fuck did you do that for? interj. Used to express extreme displeasure. Phrasal Verbs: fuck off Used in the imperative as a signal of angry dismissal. To spend time idly. To masturbate. fuck over To treat unfairly; take advantage of.fuck up To make a mistake; bungle something. To act carelessly, foolishly, or incorrectly. To cause to be intoxicated. [Middle English, attested in pseudo-Latin fuccant, (they) fuck, deciphered from gxddbov.] Word History: The obscenity fuck is a very old word and has been considered shocking from the first, though it is seen in print much more often now than in the past. Its first known occurrence, in code because of its unacceptability, is in a poem composed in a mixture of Latin and English sometime before 1500. The poem, which satirizes the Carmelite friars of Cambridge, England, takes its title, “Flen flyys,” from the first words of its opening line, “Flen, flyys, and freris,” that is, “fleas, flies, and friars.” The line that contains fuck reads “Non sunt in coeli, quia gxddbov xxkxzt pg ifmk.” The Latin words “Non sunt in coeli, quia,” mean “they [the friars] are not in heaven, since.” The code “gxddbov xxkxzt pg ifmk” is easily broken by simply substituting the preceding letter in the alphabet, keeping in mind differences in the alphabet and in spelling between then and now: i was then used for both i and j; v was used for both u and v; and vv was used for w. This yields “fvccant [a fake Latin form] vvivys of heli.” The whole thus reads in translation: “They are not in heaven because they fuck wives of Ely [a town near Cambridge].”

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fuck

n : slang terms for sexual intercourse [syn: fucking, screw, screwing, ass, nooky, nookie, piece of ass, piece of tail, roll in the hay, shag, shtup] v : have sexual intercourse with; "This student sleeps with everyone in her dorm"; "Adam knew Eve"; "Were you ever intimate with this man?" [syn: roll in the hay, love, make out, make love, sleep with, get laid, have sex, know, do it, be intimate, have intercourse, have it away, have it off, screw, jazz, eff, hump, lie with, bed, have a go at it, bang, get it on, bonk]

Source: WordNet ® 2.0, © 2003 Princeton University

shit    ( P )  Pronunciation Key  (sh t) Vulgar Slang v. shit, also shat (sh t) shit·ting, shits v. intr. To defecate. v. tr. To defecate in. To tease or try to deceive. n. Excrement. The act or an instance of defecating. shits Diarrhea. Used with the. Something considered disgusting, of poor quality, foolish, or otherwise totally unacceptable. A mean or contemptible person. A narcotic or intoxicant, such as marijuana or heroin. Things; items. Foolish, deceiftul, or boastful language. Insolent talk or behavior. Trouble or difficulty. A small or worthless amount: He doesn't know shit. interj. Used to express surprise, anger, or extreme displeasure. Phrasal Verb: shit on To treat with malice or extreme disrespect. Idioms: get (one's) shit together To get organized; put one's affairs or possessions in order.give a shit To care the least bit.no shit Used to express disbelief. Used to express contemptuous acknowledgment of the obvious. shit bricks/a brick To become extremely worried or frightened.up shit creek (without a paddle) In dire circumstances with no hope of help.when the shit hits the fan When the situation goes awry; when trouble starts. [Middle English shitten, probably from Old English -sciten(as in besciten, covered with excrement), past participle of *sc tan. See skei- in Indo-European Roots.]

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shit

n 1: obscene terms for feces [syn: crap, dirt, shite, poop, turd] 2: obscene words for unacceptable behavior; "I put up with a lot of bullshit from that jerk"; "what he said was mostly bull" [syn: bullshit, bull, Irish bull, horseshit, crap, dogshit] 3: a small worthless amount; "you don't know jack" [syn: jack, diddly-squat, diddlysquat, diddly-shit, diddlyshit, diddly, diddley, squat] 4: a coarse term for defecation; "he took a shit" [syn: dump] 5: insulting terms of address for people who are stupid or irritating or ridiculous [syn: asshole, bastard, cocksucker, dickhead, mother fucker, motherfucker, prick, whoreson, son of a bitch, SOB] 6: something of little value; "his promise is not worth a damn"; "not worth one red cent"; "not worth shucks" [syn: damn, darn, hoot, red cent, shucks, tinker's damn, tinker's dam] v 1: give away information about somebody; "He told on his classmate who had cheated on the exam" [syn: denounce, tell on, betray, give away, rat, grass, shop, snitch, stag] 2: have a bowel movement; "The dog had made in the flower beds" [syn: stool, defecate, take a shit, take a crap, ca-ca, crap, make]

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so there you go. these are the meanings of those words. If we can't say them, then, to me, we are not a free country. I am embarrased to be in the US because Bush would rather send ppl to iraq and pay billians for that then to give his own people money for things we need here FIRST! Shouldn't the US be his first priority? Where did that go? I have feedom of speech and I say Bush should be out of office! No one has the same valuse anymore. Nothing is what I thought it would be. I'm ashamed bc of Bush. He hasn't done anything really, in my opinion, to help this counrty. I don't know about you, but I don't like the road we've been on bc Buch doesn't seem to give a shit about any of his own people! I'm also very dissapointed in him. I don't see why he would spend all that money on Iraq, when people need the money in the south! hes an idiot and I don't want him to be the presedent anymore...ttyl, gloria

i got this in an email...

Must Not Be Any Oil There
Bush creates world's largest marine protected area

Well, slap our ass and call us Sally: George W. Bush, the prez formerly known as the earth's worst enemy, created the largest protected marine area in the world last week when he designated the 1,200-mile-long Northwestern Hawaiian Islands chain and surrounding waters as a national monument. The region is home to some 7,000 marine species, at least a quarter of which are unique to the area. At nearly the size of California, the monument will be larger than all of the country's national parks combined. Fishing in the largely uninhabited islands will be phased out over the next five years, though some groups plan to fight a complete fishing ban. Enviros joined marine scientists in gushing over the move. Bush was allegedly inspired by a PBS documentary about the ocean region. Imagine what could happen if he saw An Inconvenient Truth!

I'm trying to capture it,but its slipping thru my fingers like butter.

Why can't I grasp thins feeling I had before?

I try and try again, but every things so high up in the air, i can't seem to reach.

I reach on my tip toes bun can only touch it with the very tips of my slippery fingers.

I can't reach you. Your too far away.

I'm falling as my heatis sinking to the other side of the eart bc you only want to be friends.

I made that stupid mistake that beautiful day back in march to let one of the many things that made me happy without a second thought.

Who knew I'd want you back. I'd give anything, EVERYTHING to feel your endless kisses forever. I want it all back but i know it won't be back to that.

I found this song on a sound track.

'To Be Alone With You'  By Sufjan Stevens

I'd swim across lake michigan

I'd sell my shoes

I'd give my body to be back again

In the rest of the room

to be alone with you

to be alone with you

to be alone with you

to be alone with you

You gave your body to the lonely

They took your clothes

Gave up a wife and a family

You gave your ghosts

To be alone with me

To be alone with me

To be alone with me, you went upon a tree

To be alone ith me you went upon a tree

I've never known a man who loved me..

The world is waking up as I'm falling asleep.

The day breaking sun light dances across the walls playfully,

As I hide beneith my snow white confetor of my tiny bed.

I'm gonna hide from the world in my sweet whispers.

I wish you all a safe day as I sleep it away.

Missing the beautiful sunshine as it throws rays down upon our every movement.

Recorded for all to read in thousands of years to come.

I'm hiding myself away from anything that could wake me from my trembling slumber.

yeah i know i know...i haven't written nething other then about jake, jeff, n jessie...well, thats about to change...i've had just about the craziest fourth of july weekend ever! I've never done some of the stuff taht I have this weekend! lmao, first i did have plans to meet jake at stargate. i got a block away and he was too tired, which i can understand. i'm not going into detail but he was hungover the whole day. neway, i was there alone and 3 guys all tried to dance with me. i pushed 'em away and the 4th guy asked why. I told him he had to ask. he said, "If I ask, can I dance with you?" I smirked and said yes. We danced for a while. It was towards the end out the night, but I wasn't paying attention to the time. I was paying more attention to how hot he was with his glasses! he's a bit young though...his name is Casey. he has brown hair and i don't know what color eyes, maybe blue or brown. hes about 6'0 and very skinny. he's fun and I've already hung out with him since saturday.

well that was saturday night. sunday i went to the lake place to say goodbye to my aunt and uncle that were only here for a few days. they live in Missori (i can't spell). so sunday night I made plans with a few ppl to go to a carnival and to see a band play. THAT WAS THE BEST EVER! lmao i went on a few rides, ate a hamberger from my sisters stand which was really good and we danced to the band. not alot of people were dancing but we didn't care. We danced and it was soo much fun!!! lmao so moving on to dropping jeff off at his house. myself and 2 friends were texting Casey for a while and we decided to go visit him at his apartment in Apple Valley. that was soo much fun. It was great how he just didn't care that I brought 2 friends with me. I didn't really want to go alone bc that wouldn't have been as much fun. he has this video thing with a song that i can't remember, wth his favorite clips from "the notebook' which for some reason, we watched after the video clip thing. i didn't get top sleep til like 8am and slept for a few hours. we went to each of their houses and got stuff for them to come swimming and we ate at perkins. some drama started after swimming which was fun. we got back to my house, took showers and went back to the city.

Well, there was drama that happened and it was taken care of and its over with. I dropped them off and came home. I slept for a while and I'm still tired. lmao, well, gotta go! ttyl-n-much <3

Wanna Be-Nine Days

To watch the leaves grow on the trees with you is out of question.
I walk into this summer all alone the usual session.
You feel your instinct then you act but was it your intention,
To leave me down and broken now you've ended our ascension.
Yeah.
I still can feel the beach sand in my shoes. Remember when,
We talked along the ocean's song 'til blue from black fade in?
But that was then I learned to live without you far within'.
I ask you why you're back to try to let me lose again?
You brought me here you wet my taste.
You disapeer without a trace.
It wasn't me who made the call.
'Cause now I wanna' be.
Where you SLEEP,
Where you LAUGH,
Where you BRETHE!
And I hate to SAY,
Still I SWAY!
Brown your eyes,
Gone away.
Should I feel some closure I deserve if that at least.
And would you be so kind to show reasons for your release?
You woke me up from a distant past I left behind complete.
The message that you sent that night now falls to bittersweet.
Was it me my honesty?
You fail to show I never know.
It wasn't me who made the call.
'Cause now I wanna' be.
Where you SLEEP,
Where you LAUGH,
Where you BRETHE!
And I hate to SAY,
Still I SWAY!
Brown your eyes,
Gone away.
Was it me my honesty?
You fail to show I never know.
You brought me here you wet my taste.
You disapeer without a trace.
Did ya' think I'd ever lead you wrong?
Just know I'll save all of our moments that we are.
Still I wanna' be.
Where you SLEEP,
Where you LAUGH,
Where you BRETHE!
And I hate to SAY,
Still I SWAY!
Brown your eyes,
Gone away.
Now I wanna' be.
Someday you'll wish you never.
Where you SLEEP,
Someday you'll wish you never.
Where you LAUGH,
Someday you'll wish you never.
where you BRETHE.
Someday you'll wish you never.
And I hate to SAY,
Someday you'll wish you never.
Still I SWAY,
Someday you'll wish you never.
Brown your eyes,
Someday you'll wish you never.
Gone away.
Someday you'll wish you never.
It took you long enough.
It took you long enough

Asolutely (story of a girl)-Nine Days

Chorus)
This is the story of a girl
Who cried a river and drowned the whole world
And while she looks so sad in photographs,
I absolutely love her, when she smiles

How many days in a year,
She woke up with hope,
but she only found tears
and I can be so insincere,
Makin' the promises never for real
As long as she stands there waiting
Wearing the holes in the soles of her shoes
How many days disappear, when you look in the mirror
say how do you choose

Your clothes never wear as well the next day
and your hair never falls in quite the same way
You never seem to run out of things to say....

(CHORUS)

How many lovers would say
Just to put up with this everyday and all day
How did we wind up this way?
Watching our mouths for the words that we say
As long as we stand here waiting,
Wearing the clothes of the soles of her shoes
How do we get there today?
When we're walking too far for the price of her shoes


Your clothes never wear as well the next day
and your hair never falls in quite the same way
You never seem to run out of things to say....

This is the story of a girl,
Who cried a river and drowned the whole world
And while she looks so sad and lonely there, I absolutely lover her When she smiles

Well, Your clothes never wear as well the next day
and your hair never falls in quite the same way
You never seem to run out of things to say....

This is the story of a girl
Who cried a river and drowned the whole world
And while she looks so sad in photographs,
I absolutely love her

This is the story of a girl,
who's pretty face she hid from the world
And while she looks so sad and lonely there, I absolutely love her

This is the story of a girl
Who cried a river and drowned the whole world
And while she looks so sad in photographs,
I absolutely love her, when she smiles...
When she smiles

thats me in a nutshlell!

hey, its been a while...like what...a week? yeah i only worked 2 days lsat week which was ok with me! I got some shit done. I went to a tattoo place and I'm going in to see how they draw the tattoo i want. Its an angel praying on her knees. Its gonna be from the side view..her left side...dunno why i want that side, but it sounds the best way for me...neway, it'll be in black n white. no color because it doesn't last as long, unless you get it done right i guess. But thats beside the point. eah I know I talked about getting 1 for a while, but I'm going to the place saturday by my old house. I can't wait! I'm soo excited! and it's not even gonna be that big. Maybe 2 inches tall. thats it. neway..got  a new pair of shoes, very cute! and white!

so yeah, i wrote a new poem, its on my story/poem mindsay. the link is below! ttyl

i got this in a text message from a few friends.

"theres no time for regrets, no time for what ifs, don't be afraid to risk and take every kiss, cuz when your afraid to risk, cahnces are you'll miss know what you want."

"8 angels are sent to you, you must send them to 8 people. including me and in 8 minutes you'll recieve so."

Savvy

Hardworking

Yummy

Popular

Refined

Influencial

Nice

Comlex

Entertaining

Successful

Swanky

Gender: Female $135,000 Age: 21 $30,000 Ethnicity: White/Caucasian $130,000 Height: 5'4 $10,000 Weight: 130 lbs. $25,000 Body Type: Average $0 Hair Color: Brown $5,000 Eye Color: Green $5,000 Handed: Right $5,000 Body Hair: A Little Hairy $15,000 Shoe Size: 7 $5,000 Bald: No $0 20/20 Eyesight: No $0 Bra Size: NA $0 Cavities: 1-2 $1,000 Athletic Ability: Below Average $10,000 Attractiveness: NA $125,000 IQ: 88 ($62,339) SAT Score: NA $0 HS GPA: 1.5 $11,250 Education: High School $1,000 Bilingual: No $0 Income: NA $0 Profession: Manufacturing/Operations $0 Alcohol: Seldom $0 Smoker: No $15,000 Pot: No $10,000 Drugs: No $10,000 Exercise: Occasionally $10,000 Divorced: No $0 Comitted Felony: No $15,000 Watch Television: Seldom $2,500 Sexuality: NA $25,000 Style: Average $15,000 Artistic: Above Average $45,000 Sense of Humor: Average $30,000 Addictive Personality: Yes ($15,000) Give to Charity: No $0 Adult Content: Never $0 Gamble: Seldom $0 Multiplier x2 Total: $1,176,822

So my date went really good last night! We watched starsky n hutch, which i liked. I got a tour of his house and he has a HUGE unfinished basement. Him and his room mate are doing what they can to finish it when they ahve time i guess. We also talked for a while. I gave him a hug, while have a girl and guy getting it on in his pool. EW! that was somthign i didn't want to see! EW! I am blinded for life! neway, he called ma a rebel bc i don't like the stupid ditzy girls and bc i've...gone to Wisconsin. lmao try to figure that out. lmao neway, i had a good time with him adn we'll definately have a second date. so i have to go bc i'm tired, so bye!

ps, my niece Delanie swam for the FIRST TIME TODAY! IT was soo cute! i'm happy i went out there. Its not like I had nething else to do today neway. Well, appy birthday to my friend jordan. He's 20 today. well, BYE!

k...i changed my theme again. the summer may not be over, but to me i think something is. but i'm not really sure. i feel stupid yet content with being honest with a friend. Hes a great guy and I care about him. SO VERY MUCH!!! Tonight, i told him a few things he didn't know and he stormed away from the computer and I don't know where he is. I hope hes ok and I hope he understands that i'm VERY worried about him. I gues being honest isn't always best. How come every time I'm honest with someone, soemthing like this always happens? I try to be honest and look what it gets me! He walks away! how the fuck does that work? wtfidk nemore! Yeah i care and like this person alot, but i really, truly didn't intentionally tell him the honest truth to hurt him in any way. NOT IN ANY WAY WAS I TRYING TO HURT HIM! I really feel like crawling in a hole and dying! seriously! I havn't felt this stupid in a while. prolly never...but you know. I really do feel stupid for being honest. i didn't think honesty would hurt. I guess it does?

I mean, how could someone walk away after what i told...wrote to him? I mean, i care about him...but i didn't really want to hurt him in any way. Hes one of my best friends and he just walks away from me. He walked away from something and i hope he knows it hurt me that he didn't say a single word. It hurts me to know that hes angry bc i was honest...thats something new....honesty really does hurt.

A- You like to drink.

B- You like people.

C- You're wild and crazy.

D- You have one of the best personalities ever.

F- People adore you.

E- Damn good kisser.

G- You never let people tell you what to do.

H- You have a very good personality and looks.

I- You have a fine ass!

J- Everyone loves you

K- You are really silly.

L- You live to have fun.

M-sucess comes easily to you

N- You are absolutely beautiful.

O- You are one of the best in bed.

P- You are popular with all types of people.

Q- You are a hypocrite.

R- Fuckin sexy.

S- Easy to fall in love with.

T- You're loyal to those you love.

U- You really like to chill.

V- You are not judgemental.

W- You are very broad minded.

X- You never let people tell you what to do.

Y- One of the best bfs/gfs anyone could ask for.

Z- Always ready.

G- You never let people tell you what to do.

L- You live to have fun.

O- You are one of the best in bed

R- Fuckin sexy

I- You have a fine ass!

A- You like to drink

You guys know SOME of this is true.

so i've been thinking alot and yeah i don't give a shit about jeff anymore. that was our convorsation yesterday. I want everyone to know that i was really tired adn emotional. I get very emotional when i'm tired and thats part of what i wrote. so yeah! I don't want to have any type of a 'more then friends' relationship with him bc of how he acted. I know hes sorry, but it still hurt that he walked away from me. I never say that i''m hurt bc then i'll just be going into a depression and I don't want that. I don't like to be depressd, bc then I'll go thru my whole, 'i'm not pretty enough. I'm not good enough.' stage. I know it. I know I will.

I mean, yeah I care about jeff, but its just hard to be around him and now things will probably never be the same. I know that he wants me all tohimself, but thats not gonna happen. I don't care anymore. Well...yeah i care, but thats not the point. Point is, I don't care what he wants. Or what anyone else wants from me anymore. I think i'm going to start putting myself first, even though I don't know how that will go. I never really write all that much, at least not as much as I used to. and I know that I have been keeping a few things to myself, only because its best for everyone and especially those involved. I'm partly involved in something that happened and I don't want to talk about it because I feel stupid and i still feel like shit for letting it happen and go soo far.

so yeah...idkwtf anymore....i was saying that alot since I didn't talk to jeff for a few days. but yeah, i havn't talked to him since...or at least hes not talk to me....idk how that works out but I'm still mad at him and will be until i want to be ok with him again. I'm not happy about how I even approched the situation. I'm not proud of telling him about it either and I don't knwo what else to say on the subject.

Now, on a happier not...well still a little sad, I got to see matt for a little while...like 45 minutes yesterday. For now, until I see what else there is, hes the only guy that i see thats in the running for the bf position. yeah I know I make it sound like its a job, but yeah..i like him and he reminds me a little of everyone in a way...hes sweet, honest, funny, has a good job, sober(he doesn't drink, hasn't for 6 months) and he gives me compliments. Oh and hes playful in a way....sorta...he was playing with his dog sparky that him and his room mate have. it was soo cute! lmao sometimes i wish I could have a video camera at all times just so i can tape what people do. stupid or cute. well, yeah hes the only guy for now...i'll talk to you all later. I'm good for now.

lmao yeah this is kinda random...a random entry you could say...so saturday i went to stargate with jake...yes..my exbf jake...well, we went and as we danced these girl danced by us and we kept getting pushed towards them. this 1 chick(this was an 18+ night) was just wanting jake! It was funny! idkwtf her problem was, but she kept giving me this look lie, "Why is he with you?!" I was like, "Best song ever! Scotty's hott!" lmao yeah Scotty Davis is pretty hott with his little mohawk thing..but yeah hes an awsome guy. Well neway, i was dancing with jake n only 2 guys tried to dance with me.  I was in this short jean skirt and a tank top that says 'girl next door' on it and I was wearing this greenish blue kind of beaded necklace. Well, I was getting really hot and it wasn't nebetter outside...it was fuckin 80 degrees that night! well, i pulled up my shirt bc i was really hot. I folded it up to the bottom of my boobs. (I'm trying to give you a damn visual..not trying to gross ne1 out!) well, it only showe 'girl' and I was like 'ok who really cares?' and the beaded necklace was really long and I have it wrapped around my neck twice. so it falls to my stomach an idk...i was getting this wierd look from the girls around  us but idc about them.

these 2 guys tried to dance with me and i just pushed them away bc i'm not gonns dance with someone taht can't take a second and ask if he can dance with me. Its not gonna kill You! lmao

Guy: *walks up behind girl on dance floor and starts to hump her*

Girl:  *pushes guy away*

Guy: *falls to ground not moving*

yeah...interesting..well i'll be going now.

ok so i'm fuckin pissed because people don't know how to tell me shit to ME! What the fuck is wrong with telling people the truth to their face instead of keeping it to themselves? I mean, yeah jeff, I understand why hes pissed at me, bc i blew up at him, and I'm sorry, but still! He shouldn't be doing this! He can't ignore it! I know he likes me and I know I like him...but not to the point of him needing to ignore me. Yeah I understand he wants space...but PLEASE! That doesn't mean, you should avoid me its just bullshit that if you can't come out and fuckin say it, then fuck you! I'll talkt to you when I feel like it!

Michelle Branch "Are You Happy Now?"

Now, don't just walk away
Pretending everything's ok
And you don't care about me
And I know there's just no use
When all your lies become your truths and I don't care... yeah, yeah, yeah

Could you look me in the eye
And tell me that you're happy now, ohhh, ohhh
Would you tell it to my face or have I been erased,
Are you happy now?
Are you happy now?

You took all there was to take,
And left with an empty plate
And you don't care about it, yeah.
And I, I've given up this game
I'm leaving you with all the blame cause I don't care, yeah, yeah yeah,

Could you look me in the eye?
And tell me that you're happy now, oohh oohhh
Would you tell it to my face or have I been erased,
Are you happy now? Ohhh, ohhhh
Are you happy now?

Do you really have everything you want?
You can't ever give something you ain't got.
You can't run away from yourself

Could you look me in the eye?
and tell me that you`re happy now, oohh oohhh
come on tell it to my face or have i been erased,
are you happy now? Ohhh, ohhhh
are you happy now?

Would you look me in the eye?
Could you look me in the eye?
I've had that all I can take
And I'm about to break
Cause I'm happy now, ohhh, ohhh
Are you happy now?

so idk what else there is to do...everyone got off or r away adn the 1 person i want to talk to is sleeping....and right now i want to talk to him bc it is important. even though its prolly gonna be me yeeling at him again...and i know thats not right but him avoiding me isn't either........and idk...i want to get away from here...sometimes i just want o go away and see if ne1 even notices...but i already know they would....but why should i run away? That would just look like I'm running away from life. From what i could have and what should i do about how I feel? I mean....yeah of course I care about everyone! It's just...life shouldn't be hard at making these types of desitions..yeah and I can't spell...neway that shouldn't matter. this is me i guess..................and i havn't really been able to talk to anyone because their all gone...:( leaving me with no one to talk to....I hate life....btu I guess this is all part of it and not everything is easy....i feel like I destroyed something......like when I was yelling at jeff.....i feel like I destroyed what we had...but i don't want to be more then friends with him! and I don't think i got that spacific message acros and I don't know if he'll ever talk to me and I don't want what happened between two people to happen with me adn jeff...yeah i understand that he wants space...but why couldn't he just tell me that? instead of telling someone else? and I think i'm getting sick...i'm sneezing alot...idk..maybe its jsut me but neway...yeah what do i do about this shit when I'm not sure about the rest of my life? People care, i know that already.

Matt left for camp and I guess I'll be right here waiting for him bc as much as i can see...i can see us having a really good relationship...i've had only 1 really good relationship where we worked TOGETHER to get thru it all....and I think thats how this relationship might be. Oh, he'll be back in 2 weeks. Then we can hang out again...i kinda ditched him for fireworks friday and sunday h couldn't hang out that long, but at least i got to visit with him...while i was hung over. but thats not the point.

I really want everything to work out and it seems that now that i 'pissed jeff off' i have to wait on him. What does he want me to do/ Beg on my hands and knees to be his gf?! Fuck that! I don't want that. I'm not sure what I want anymore. I want to live my life as much as i can and just keep on my path and i don't want to fuss over the stupid shit because its not alway worth the fight when you don't really know what others want.

I don't even know what to do about this...its all messed up....ever since i opened my mouth and now its like, 'who caresanymore?' but then when i ask that...10 people raise their hands and its like...great! Now what do i do? What the fuck do i do about stupid dhit like this? I shouldn't let it get to me i know...but idk...

i just want to get on a plain and go to a place where no one knows me. Delete everything about me anywhere and let others wonder. "Where did she go? Whats wrong with her?' You know? I mean, I just want to be back to me...i know i'm attractive, i don't need to be told that. i'm already reasured about that and I do appreciate those of you who said that i am. Thank you.

hhhmmmmm.......and if I were to get on a plain....where would i go? I think Ireland or England. That would be great fun! I at least want to go somewhere where i can speak the same general language as them...and plus, the accents are hot! lmao yeah you know it is!!! lmao i fell in love with the irish accent just recenty when i watched 'the boondock saits'. Very good movie. neway...i feel a little better about things now that i wrote it all out....i guess now all i do is wait it out? idk....ttfn!

WHEN I FLIP MY HAIR
-PLAY WITH MY HAIR

WHEN I RUN AWAY FROM YOU
- CHASE ME


WHEN I POUT MY LIPS
- KISS ME


WHEN I KICK & PUNCH
- HOLD ME TIGHT


WHEN I CALL YOU A LOSER
- JUST KNOW THAT YOUR MY LOSER


WHEN I AM SILENT
- IM THINKIN OF HOW TO SAY I LOVE YOU


WHEN I IGNORE YOU
- I WANT ALL YOUR ATTENTION


WHEN I PULL AWAY
- GRAB ME BY THE WAIST AND NEVER LET GO


WHEN YOU SEE ME AT MY WORST
- TELL ME IM BEAUTIFUL


WHEN I SCREAM AT YOU
- TELL ME YOU LOVE ME AND MEAN IT


WHEN YOU SEE ME WALKING
-SNEAK UP BEHIND ME GRAB ME BY THE WAIST AND GIVE ME A KISS


IF I DONT CALL YOU
- IM WANTING YOU TO CALL ME


WHEN IM SCARED
-HOLD ME AND TELL EVERYTHING WILL BE OK


WHEN I LOOK LIKE SOMETHINGS THE MATTER
- KISS ME AND TELL ME NOT TO WORRY


WHILE I HOLD YOUR HANDS
- PLAY WITH MY FINGERS

so i've been going really into detail about so stuff...like thinking alot...and i've come to the conclusion that i'm alright if jeff doesn't want to talk to me...idcare really. it has been nice..but also when i get home and try to talk to someone online, i'm on for 10 minutes and everyone has to go :( its sad bc then i'm on all alone..and I can't fall asleep right away.

so yeah back to my thinking....it was just a small fling. I started to pull outta that bc i guess i kinda used him in a way. I feel like I used him to get the feeling of being loved like I was once before but then I slowly started to pull out and now I just want to be friends. No more of this 'benefits' shit. Yeah we made out a few times and I'm sorry I led him on....adn in a way, I think he used me a little. His exgf broke it off by using a post-it note...thats kinda pathetic...and I think he was using me to get over her. He was in a 2 year relationship and he thinks that hes ok...and i don't think he was right away. NOw that hes single, and seeing that i don't want to be with him, hes moving on to someone else. He has a thing soemoen else, but I don't think its as strong a feeling as it was with me. I know the other girl and she knows me. He likes her and she likes him more then ever...and I don't think she knows how he really felt about me bc i never told ne1 about what he told me. not some of it at lease.

well, on a happier note, I do feel something towards Matt. I think matt n I can have a really good relationship. I want to see where this goes with Matt before I decided what I want. I'm not sure of what I want. But I do know, that if things go really well, I will be his gf in a few weeks/months. I don't want to rush this bc I don't see a reason to. Yeah I'm 21 granted I wanna have fun, but in another way, I don't want to lose my connection with him. I dont' want to screw up nething with him bc that would prolly screw my chances with someone like him. I know alota respectful guys and hes just 1 of many I've met. and I do plan to get to know him better and to spend more then just 45 minutes with him....

well I think thats all for now, I was really bored and this helped...WOW! I didn't blog AFTER i got home from work! lmao ttyl! much <3!

so i actually took pics of a few of us..i'm in a few but hey! I was the one behind the camera! i was having too much fun w/it to care who i blinded! and plus, i had already had a little something...1/2 a strawberry dacarie...yeah i probably spelt that wrong but I don't care really....especially at 3am! lmao...well this weekend was really fun! I had a blast hanging with a bunch of people! I did hang out with jake and then later on saturday, me n steph went n hung out w/andrew n jordan. That was oo awkward! I forgot how amusing it was to hang out with them.... and yeah, me, jordan, n andrew went to IHOP at like 1am to eat and it was fun...I got a small order of pancakes and an orange juice...i was forcing myself to eat bc of the gut rot i had from saturday night...i was sober to drive bc i didn't drink all that much...but i still had a blast! MICHELLE! When are we gonna go to dinner like we had made plans for? Let me know...maybe sunday night? just let me know please?

well, neway...i had decided that since its gonna b winter soon and the school year is gonna take place, i'm going to stay on nites at Dura, because i like how it is...adn plus...I have my next review in October! i'm really proud of the effort I put in at Dura and for what I've learned! its a really good expierieance for me to work there! I like it and when I first started to hinge in the door area, when i first started nights, i was only hinging like...350 doors....tonight I hinged 503 doors and dawer fronts! Thats with peobably 50 remakes and trucks! I'm really proud of myself of how I have accomplished this! Really! I am! I never really thought about how much i know until I was asked by Michelle's dad where I live and what I do. I told him, "I work at Dura Supreme Cabnitry." I am proud to work there. He asked me what I do, and really, all I could do is laugh. I can only laugh because it would probably take me a solide half hour or so just to explain what all I've learned to do! I am just gonna say that a year ago...i never would have thought that i'd be making this amount of money ever in my life! I will probably be making a few cents shy of $11 come October 17th...my one year anniversery. and yes...tahts also Mike's 21st Birthday AND the day he graduated from Le Cordon Bleu...yeah I remember, so shut up!

lmao...or so yeah i'm proud of what i've accomplished...

1. getting over a break up that shattered everything.

2. having to see that i can't always be around and have time to hang out with ALL ym friends.

3. sometimes not knowing what to really do at Brookdale, when you've been there soo many times, its getting boring.

4. actually being excited about meeting someone new and getting to know soo many more people!

5. apreciating the family and friends I will always have and loving them all!

so yeah! This year...when I look back to last september...it's been the year from H***..i don't want to affend anyone, so yeah! Well, i think i'm gonna go now! ttyl!

yeah I think i just lost 2 of my best friends...this summer had soo many high and low points...its hard to tell the story of this past summer...plus it might take a while. So, i'm bored and idk what to really do with myself...i'd start reading a book, but sometimes when I get really into a book i don't pay attention to the time. I also thought that this winter, i might take up a second job doing bartending part time...like 2 weekends outta the month..like every other weekend. so then i have extra money just in case..plus, i'm not gonna know what to do with myself if no one comes to visit...yeah i may live an hour away..but I already know no ones gonna come and visit..except maybe 1 person adn yeah we all know who that is..

but still..if i work every other weekend, like from 7pm to 2am, that really isn't all that bad. i'm just rambling...i really have nothing to do bc 1 person thinks i'm mad..well, i am a little, and the other won't talk to me bc hes stupid and doesn't know what hes missing out on. We did not have a relationship. I was never his to begin with. I have not had a boyfriend since march, which was really my own choice. i didn't want one after the last one bc i think it was bc i jsut wanted to be single. and the summer being single is soo much fun! I had a blast not having to really worry about a guy doing shit behind my back, or holding myself back from flirting. I was told not to flirt with a few guys, but i am sneky like that.

no on ever ntices me flirting..and plus i came outta my shell a little. I am not as self constious as I used to be. 3 months ago, i wouldn't have worn a skirt. but after being told i have a nice body and I'm pretty, i came outta the little shell i've always been in. I'm proud of myself for that i guess...life really is worth my time...but i wouldn't have said that a while ago....i really went thru alot adn so has some other people I know. I think all the struggles that we all go thru will make us who we become in the future. i know that now i can wear something like a skirt..a jean one at that, and be conftorable...well, mostly...around only soo many people...i wouldn't wear one to the mall. I wouldn't want to walk down the stairs and then have a group of guys givin me wierd looks...even though that already happens any where i go.

what is with people though? I wear something and don't really try...and I get wierd looks! i don't get it i guess...well, i actually listened to a cd i havn't listened to since I bought it...Ashley Parker Angel...i really listened to 3. "Soundtrack To Your Life"...and I think it fits right now...i really do think i have to make life more fun for me...try and do something for me i guess....idk..i guess i'm rambling...and changing...bc thats how life is...i came up with this title for a book..'12 Stages Of Life' idk where it came from but yeah! I thought that I'd make it the title of my poems...that would be fun....and I'm at a block for my poems right now...so yeah! I guess it was just a burt to write...that happens sometimes..well....i really don't know what to say for now....i'm gonna try to write those lyrics bc i can't find 'em online newhere...and I have 2 lyrcis sites book marked...well neway...here what i got from it

"Soundtrack To Your Life" by Ashely Parker Angel

if you can't hear me, and know that i'm right here.

i heard your heart beat, it took away the fear.

cause my life is sliding, i tried to ride the wave.

it came down crashing, its time to start again.

backwards to go forwards, a left at every corner.

been there back again, when the music ends.

you life is a flashback, a question, a photograph,

a statement, a story, a struggle, a tend to laugh.

cause if you don't laugh you cry, so hit the rewind, and play back.

Choose your answer for each category. Add up the $ to see how much you are worth. Repost with headline: I am worth $_____

Hair color:
[]Natural Blonde $50
[]Bottle Blonde $45
[x]Brunette $40
[]Black $40
[]Redhead $45
[]Other $15

Eye Color:
[]Blue $25
[x]Green $15
[]Brown $20
[]Grey $15
[x]Hazel $20
[]Other $10

Height:
[]Under 5' $20
[x]5' - 5'8" $25
[]5'9" - 6' $30
[]Over 6' $35

Age:
[]13 and under $10
[]14-16 $15
[]17-18 $20
[x]19-21 $25
[]22-30 $20
[]30-40 $15
[]Over 40 $10

Education:
[]Middle School $10
[]Quit high school $0
[]still in high school $5
[]GED $10
[x]High School Grad $50
[]In College $75
[]2 year degree $85
[]4 year degree $100
[]Higher degree $125

Birth Order:
[]Only child $15
[]First born $50
[x]Last born $40
[]Middle child $30
[]Other $20

Smoke?
[]Yes $0
[x]No $20

Drink?
[x]Never $35
[]1-5 x's month $25
[]6-10 x's month $20
[]11+ x's month $15

Vision?
[]No correction $30
[x]Glasses $10
[]Contacts $15
[]Surgical correction $20



Car Color:
[]Red $50
[]Blue $30
[]Green $30
[]Silver $45
[x]White $20
[]Black $25
[]Other $20

Shoe Size:
[x]5/6 $20
[]7/8 $30
[]9+ $15


Current Undies:
[x]bikini $15
[]thong $15
[]brief $5
[]boxers $20
[]none $0

total: $325

ok this just came to mind, but meh..its 4:40am and i got the burst to write about something...dunno what yet...i guess i'll be rambling...AGAIN! like I have been for the past few entries.....so i was thinking that i'll take life to the fullest adn i'll try my hardest to accomlish getting to know me again....for some reason, i feel like I've lost touch with a part of me...or just my real dad...yes...someone i never talk about because I havn't seen his face since I was in 8th grade. FOr those who DON'T know...my biological father died from a massive heart attack when i was only 14. He wasn't really like a father, but i did cry when i was told at the hospital that he died. They couldn't save him. I do remember sitting on the floor with my sister and my mom's best friends' daughter, Sabrina, in a small waiting area. My mom, Lisa (mom's best friend), my aunt Shelly, and my uncle Gordy(my dad's brother), sittin in the chairs. a male doctor came out and i only remember saying no as tears filled my eyes that i had lost apart of me. no one really knows about that day, because it was during spring break and i was in such a bad part of my life, ino one believed me...not those i called my friends...i don't even talk to those people anymore. I Cried at school, i was more so scared for what was gonna happen. But all i could do is live everydays as it went by. durring the summer, i changed, DRASTICALLY!

I got my hair highlighted and cut, so i looked more like a girl...and i wasn't going to be called a dyke like in middle school....i had goldish blonde highlights with my brunette hair. and the other part that sucked is i had braces. i had them for four years. which i hated before and it wasn't until i met a few cute boys, that i was already feeling better.

Every year that has past, i have grown into a not so bad lookin young lady. In ways, i can see that i can improve. in others, i can see that i don't need to change. i've been told I am 'awsome' by only 2 guys. but i don't need them to tell me that, because i already know I am. lolz...so yeah this was a serious entry...i still cry when i think of that day at the hospital...every time almost...if i'm alone, i let the tears come...flowing like they should...when i'm around others, i push them back...the last time I cried over my father, was when i watched "Downtown Girls" with mike....and the ending hit home....my dad played the guitar and i really would like to learn..but i guess right now isn't best..seeing as i'm busy as it is.....so yeah! I should go...nothing else to write really...nite!

so my parents decided to be asses and disconnect the phone line for the internet at my house and i'm stuck goin to the library :( but i guess that isn't too bad except the 20 minute drive!!! ARG it's not any fun and I shouldn't be driving except to work...but i have nothing else to do...bc i live no where close to anyone.....other wise i'd visit people...neway...Dura sucks because they cut an hour off the past 2 nights....thats like...$21.00 or something lost!!! I'm soo mad! I don't care if its bc of labor! We're not where we're supposed to be as in goal and I'm pissed bc it's an extra hour of nothing to do...bc i can't go on and chat with people...:( i sometimes wanna cry...but i don't see a  reason to right now...

anyway.................life is ok for now...i hung out with jake and all those people saturday and the interesting part...I saw Jordan and Andrew for the first time in like 3 or 4 months! not since that whole thing of andrew bullshitting stephanie...and I wasn't really in that...that was between them...neway, its interesting how they both act when you have 2 girls..just us 4...sitting and talking. I had fun! I will admit i have a small tiny crush on jordan...and he is different when he's drank some...yeah they were both drunk and me n steph...well we did drink earlier in the night, but by 3am, we were fine...neway...i stole jordans AZU hat because for some reason I'm goin thru an obsession with arizona...dunnno why...neway....i stole it and it was right on his head too! BUt he got it back w/in 24 hours, so its all good...neway, i'm gonna go...got other things to do! lotsa love!

I have a new picture! lolz, i was bored and this is the best picture of me that I took...and so i wanted to use it...i've been a little bored and I have the internet back at my house! YAY! ^.^ "Close to you so far away, a rented room, empty space. Sirens bleeding thru the empty door."  ok so this is from "Apology" sung by Ashley Parker Angel. I really do enjoy his album. I don't know what it was that made me want to listen to it...i guess its because I wanted something different then my Hinder cd...WHICH SOMEONE STOLE!!! When i was at jake's house, we put my hinder cd in and someone stole it! I was soo mad and sad at the same time, i wanted to cry! :(

anyway...yeah i'm a little bored...but i posted a few things on my Story blog...so if you wanna let me know...one story is odd....idk where it came from..but i guess i was bored and it just came from my mind...i noticed that i have a very BIG imagination...HUGE actually....to come up with alota short stories....or to start something and just not finish it...thats what more of my stories are...unfinished. I will plan a day to finish one...but i'm not sure when that will be....well, neway..i'm gonna go...i'm a little hungry....so i'm gonna raid the fridge! lmao, JK! ttyl!

 Gmire85 [11:39 P.M.]:  ok, so do you want michelle or not? bc this is your only chance to have her. after this, you'll never have a chance with her again.
KrazyJuggla666 [11:40 P.M.]:  Do u have to get into everything
KrazyJuggla666 [11:40 P.M.]:  GO AWAY
Gmire85 [11:40 P.M.]:  this is what michelle wanted me to say to you you arrogant asshole!
KrazyJuggla666 [11:40 P.M.]:  think what u want bitch i dont care just leave me alone
Gmire85 [11:40 P.M.]:  then talk to michelle!
KrazyJuggla666 [11:41 P.M.]:  then you stay out of it
Gmire85 [11:41 P.M.]:  she asked me to!
KrazyJuggla666 [11:41 P.M.]:  i dont give a fuck
KrazyJuggla666 [11:41 P.M.]:  stay out of it and stay out of my life
Gmire85 [11:41 P.M.]:  i'm not in your life...i couldn't give a shit about you!
Gmire85 [11:41 P.M.]:  michelle is my friend, i care about her!
KrazyJuggla666 [11:42 P.M.]:  i dont care
KrazyJuggla666 [11:42 P.M.]:  but i dont wwant u talking to me
KrazyJuggla666 [11:42 P.M.]:  thank u
KrazyJuggla666 [11:42 P.M.]:  please drive to the next window maybe that person will talk to u
Gmire85 [11:42 P.M.]:  talk to michelle! Shes the one thats hurt! Your fuckin hurting her!
KrazyJuggla666 [11:43 P.M.]:  im not doing shit
KrazyJuggla666 [11:43 P.M.]:  fuck off
KrazyJuggla666 [11:43 P.M.]:  and leave me alone
KrazyJuggla666 [11:43 P.M.]:  ok
KrazyJuggla666 [11:43 P.M.]:  i didnt do nothing
KrazyJuggla666 [11:43 P.M.]:  but sit around
KrazyJuggla666 [11:43 P.M.]:  being my self
KrazyJuggla666 [11:43 P.M.]:  ok
KrazyJuggla666 [11:43 P.M.]:  i have done nothing
Gmire85 [11:43 P.M.]:  You think your some big shot, who thinks that they can get away with this shit!
KrazyJuggla666 [11:43 P.M.]:  no
KrazyJuggla666 [11:43 P.M.]:  i dont
KrazyJuggla666 [11:43 P.M.]:  u dont know me
KrazyJuggla666 [11:43 P.M.]:  ok
KrazyJuggla666 [11:43 P.M.]:  u wont know me
KrazyJuggla666 [11:43 P.M.]:  and u will never know me
KrazyJuggla666 [11:43 P.M.]:  ok
Gmire85 [11:43 P.M.]:  then why are you telling michelle shit!
KrazyJuggla666 [11:43 P.M.]:  so fuck off and die
KrazyJuggla666 [11:43 P.M.]:  i havent told michelle nothing
KrazyJuggla666 [11:43 P.M.]:  ok
KrazyJuggla666 [11:44 P.M.]:  just fucking go away
KrazyJuggla666 [11:44 P.M.]:  ive had enough of ur shit
Gmire85 [11:44 P.M.]:  youwish i would die don't you?
KrazyJuggla666 [11:44 P.M.]:  yes
KrazyJuggla666 [11:44 P.M.]:  please
Gmire85 [11:44 P.M.]:  really? so when did io lie to yiou?
KrazyJuggla666 [11:44 P.M.]:  just go away
KrazyJuggla666 [11:45 P.M.]:  ok
KrazyJuggla666 [11:45 P.M.]:  just leave
Gmire85 [11:45 P.M.]:  when the fuck did i lie?
Gmire85 [11:46 P.M.]:  really, i'd like the answer to that
KrazyJuggla666 [11:46 P.M.]:  would u just go away
KrazyJuggla666 [11:46 P.M.]:  ur not worht my time
KrazyJuggla666 [11:46 P.M.]:  i thought u where
Gmire85 [11:46 P.M.]:  really?
KrazyJuggla666 [11:46 P.M.]:  but ur not
KrazyJuggla666 [11:46 P.M.]:  just leave it to that
KrazyJuggla666 [11:46 P.M.]:  its the past
KrazyJuggla666 [11:46 P.M.]:  its over
KrazyJuggla666 [11:46 P.M.]:  and u played a game with me which u shouldnt have played
KrazyJuggla666 [11:46 P.M.]:  ok
KrazyJuggla666 [11:46 P.M.]:  now just fucking
KrazyJuggla666 [11:46 P.M.]:  go
Gmire85 [11:47 P.M.]:  i never played a fuckin game! We didn't date! I wasn't your girlfriend! you weren't my boyfriend!
KrazyJuggla666 [11:47 P.M.]:  yeah
KrazyJuggla666 [11:47 P.M.]:  i know
KrazyJuggla666 [11:47 P.M.]:  but
Gmire85 [11:47 P.M.]:  stop fuckin acting like it was
KrazyJuggla666 [11:47 P.M.]:  thats not the point
KrazyJuggla666 [11:47 P.M.]:  just fucking
KrazyJuggla666 [11:47 P.M.]:  GLORIA
KrazyJuggla666 [11:47 P.M.]:  STO{P
KrazyJuggla666 [11:47 P.M.]:  ur going ot pist me off
KrazyJuggla666 [11:47 P.M.]:  more then i am
KrazyJuggla666 [11:47 P.M.]:  and u dont want that
KrazyJuggla666 [11:47 P.M.]:  trust me
Gmire85 [11:48 P.M.]:  i'm not affraid of you
KrazyJuggla666 [11:48 P.M.]:  hahahaha
KrazyJuggla666 [11:48 P.M.]:  haha
KrazyJuggla666 [11:48 P.M.]:  hahahahahaha
Gmire85 [11:48 P.M.]:  i hope you know i'm not
KrazyJuggla666 [11:48 P.M.]:  what
KrazyJuggla666 [11:48 P.M.]:  u ganna sick ur lil boy toy on me
KrazyJuggla666 [11:48 P.M.]:  ha
KrazyJuggla666 [11:48 P.M.]:  try me
Gmire85 [11:48 P.M.]:  that i'm not afraid of you
KrazyJuggla666 [11:48 P.M.]:  JUST FUCKING TRY ME ONE MORE TIME
KrazyJuggla666 [11:48 P.M.]:  DO IT
Gmire85 [11:48 P.M.]:  i don't have a boytoy and I don't need a guy to stick up for me
KrazyJuggla666 [11:48 P.M.]:  I FUCKING DARE U
Gmire85 [11:49 P.M.]:  dare me to what?
KrazyJuggla666 [11:49 P.M.]:  DO SOMETHING ABOUT IT
KrazyJuggla666 [11:49 P.M.]:  SEROISLY
KrazyJuggla666 [11:49 P.M.]:  TRY ME
KrazyJuggla666 [11:49 P.M.]:  I WISH U WOULD
KrazyJuggla666 [11:49 P.M.]:  CUZ U WONT WIN
Gmire85 [11:49 P.M.]:  what do you want me to do?
KrazyJuggla666 [11:49 P.M.]:  NOW FUYCKING LEAVE ME ALONE
KrazyJuggla666 [11:49 P.M.]:  FUCKING JUST GO
Gmire85 [11:49 P.M.]:  really?
Gmire85 [11:49 P.M.]:  why should i go anywhere?
Gmire85 [11:49 P.M.]:  its MY computer!
KrazyJuggla666 [11:50 P.M.]:  YEAH AND UR SN IS ON MINE SO FUCKING GO
KrazyJuggla666 [11:50 P.M.]:  OK
KrazyJuggla666 [11:50 P.M.]:  LEAVE ME ALONE
Gmire85 [11:50 P.M.]:  just tell michelle the truth then!
Gmire85 [11:51 P.M.]:  and tell me when i fuckin lied to your pathetic ass!
Gmire85 [11:52 P.M.]:  thats what i thought
KrazyJuggla666 [11:53 P.M.]:  ur nothing but a drama fucking freak ur not in fucking high school any more ok
KrazyJuggla666 [11:53 P.M.]:  i dont need this shit from u
KrazyJuggla666 [11:53 P.M.]:  i dont need non of this
KrazyJuggla666 [11:53 P.M.]:  and why dont u just fucking leave me alone
Gmire85 [11:53 P.M.]:  no one needs this shit
KrazyJuggla666 [11:53 P.M.]:  for hte best of everything
KrazyJuggla666 [11:53 P.M.]:  no one needs ur shit
KrazyJuggla666 [11:53 P.M.]:  ok
KrazyJuggla666 [11:53 P.M.]:  now leave me the fuck alone
Gmire85 [11:53 P.M.]:  i don't give anyone shit
Gmire85 [11:53 P.M.]:  like you said...i'm 'pefect'
KrazyJuggla666 [11:53 P.M.]:  bull shit
KrazyJuggla666 [11:53 P.M.]:  u where perfect
KrazyJuggla666 [11:53 P.M.]:  intill u fucked up
Gmire85 [11:54 P.M.]:  so...how did i fuck up? by 'lying' to you?
KrazyJuggla666 [11:54 P.M.]:  it doesnt matter any more
KrazyJuggla666 [11:54 P.M.]:  cuz nothing will fix it
KrazyJuggla666 [11:54 P.M.]:  ok
KrazyJuggla666 [11:54 P.M.]:  just leave me alone
Gmire85 [11:55 P.M.]:  how do you know that?

 KrazyJuggla666 [12:00 A.M.]:  cuz i know ok
KrazyJuggla666 [12:00 A.M.]:  i just fucking know
KrazyJuggla666 [12:00 A.M.]:  now just leave me alone
Gmire85 [12:00 A.M.]:  know what?
KrazyJuggla666 [12:00 A.M.]:  cant u just do that
Gmire85 [12:01 A.M.]:  michelle asked me..and if i'm a liar and you have no proof, stop calling me that
Gmire85 [12:01 A.M.]:  can you do that for  me?
KrazyJuggla666 [12:02 A.M.]:  no
KrazyJuggla666 [12:02 A.M.]:  cuz
KrazyJuggla666 [12:02 A.M.]:  obvoislyu
Gmire85 [12:02 A.M.]:  i'll leave you lone if you can tell me straight up that i lied to you
KrazyJuggla666 [12:02 A.M.]:  im a fucking
KrazyJuggla666 [12:02 A.M.]:  asshole to u
KrazyJuggla666 [12:02 A.M.]:  when u dont even know me how u should
Gmire85 [12:02 A.M.]:  you are
KrazyJuggla666 [12:02 A.M.]:  ok
KrazyJuggla666 [12:02 A.M.]:  u just went down the fuckign wrong path with me
KrazyJuggla666 [12:02 A.M.]:  and that wasnt a good idea
KrazyJuggla666 [12:02 A.M.]:  cuz im
KrazyJuggla666 [12:02 A.M.]:  fuckign
KrazyJuggla666 [12:02 A.M.]:  jkla;sdjklasr